Th3atr3.of.Dr3amZ

kallang roars.

2009-02-08T15:39:00.003+08:00

kallang roar.!

that says it all.. the movie is out on dVd noww. u have got to get ur hads on them, realli. okk maybe im exageratin a lil.. but yeah.. go watch 'em guys whoever who've yet to catch 'em..

tat's all folks,

UNTUK BANGSA DAN NEGARA.!!
MAJULAH.!!

-E1RWAN. =]

posted.

2009-01-28T02:24:00.003+08:00

posted.

guess what. in a blink of an eye. its already 'P-O-P-OH.!!' could you believe that.?
i've served my NS fo 3 whole friggin months already.
and so i got posted to my top prioritised choice of vocation which is..
NPCO.! - national police cadet officer.
but unluckily, not J-division = juliet;jurong like i wanted to.
instead, Delta division, clementi. its okk, it is still nearby..
thank godd, alhamdulillah. =]

as for my pass out parade, it was okk.. great.. short it seemed but overall good. =]
3 important saints in my life turn up for my POP.!
couldn't ask for more. =]
okk, this sound realli vain..
but i think i look good in policeman uniform, no kidd.!

as for my life right noww. still blissed as ever..
of course there are the ups and downs.. nevertheless.. godd has been realli nice to me as usual.
i'm happi. =]
and dya noe tat i'm currently havin my 1 week of break before returnin back to my monotonous and routined life in camp again tis friday.?
yeahh yeahh, enjoy every moment of it.. wakin up realli late.. late night lights outt.. lappy as source of entertainment.. soccer games on tv.. and my comfy comfy bed and pillows.!
home sweet home i tell ya.!

okk to all those celebratin lunar new year,
here e1rwan wishes u guys n girls out there to haf a prosperous new year ahead ya.!
kick out the rats and welcome the ox ya.!
oh and did i mention, my mom's 50th bday is on the 29th tis month.
urgh. ive yet to have any idea what to do for her..
clues anyone.?

i'm missin my heart's audition again come tis friday..
tskk, hais.
wish i could be there, realli.
here's a simple lil prayer for her.
may everythin goes well and be AWESOME.
insya'Allah. =]
hope she'll relax and just have fun.

oh yeah.
i think i realli wanna complete watchin stuff tis year.
here's my list:-
1] smallville season 1-7
2] heroes season 1-3
3] ghost whisperer season 1-3
4] my wife and kids season 1-4
5] 8 simple rule to dating my teenage daughter
6] One piece.

anione willing to buy or rent me their completed collection of season to any of the shows above.? please, hee.

what should i doo..

2009-01-17T00:53:00.002+08:00

blackhole,

selfish, greed.
heartless, lost.
undeservin'.

still unable to find the right words to depict. what is it.

thot i had it all.. cos i want it all..
it seems hardd, so hardd..
which is right, which is wrong..

am i realli pulled by all corners..
or am i just jumpin' to them.
i started to thinkk..

am i able to.
still hangin' on tight, or
are they slippin out of my grip.?

godd, i realli do have time management issues. i priorities all the wrong things.. and NS is so not helpin'. tskk.

friends;
your heart, your better half;
your family, your life.

i miss 'em all. can i have 'em all.
please.

i miss gettin' dirty on e pitch with team westridge.
i miss flaring up the street courts with team bK.
i miss hangin out wit them.
never got sick of it, but i could rarely get a chance now.
dyin, passion.?

i could have gone to work every single time wit her.
i could have return together wit her too.
short visits to her place often.
a daily call, a gazillion text msgs.
saturdays reserved.
my better half, my heart.
clingy am i.?

family; just us 4.
the ones i should see and feel most.
could barely get a day together.
busy with our own lives.?
a mom who cooks her son the awesomest delicacies whenever..
he books out, whenever at home, before bookin in.
a dad who slogs out day in day out just to make sure the family runs well..
he's takin' day off just to see his son pass out on his parade..
my sis showering the family with everlastin wackiness..
i miss joshin around wit her, my favourite teacher..
i miss home, i miss the quality time.
i miss my family, godd.

NS is so not helpin, becoming a man.? rightt, crap.

my friends,
my heart,
my family.

one weekend.
can i have them all.?
nott.

i'm sorri to miss out on u guys, my bro.
i'm sorri to not have been by your side, my heart.
sorri to have neglected you alot, my family.

i wish i can choose to be with all of them at one time. the only free time i've got.

i'm losin out.. who do i please..

e1rwan: undeservin, they all deserve better.

e1rwan

2009-01-09T23:48:00.002+08:00

waheyy.

yeahh.. your eyes arent playin tricks on u.. yes i am updatin.. after a realli realli realli long hiatus uh.. but yeah.. cant promise anithin.. just felt like doin so.. so yeah dun expect religious updates from me.. cos its realli realli hard for me.. i'll explain why later.. so yeah a brand new year.. a brand new experience awaits for me.. here i comee...

flashback 2008:
-arwah malix.
-national service, police.
-polytechnic diploma graduation
-my heart fit.

that would be a real highlight of last year for me.. wont explain in details.. will be passin out soon. thank godd.. 22nd jan 2009 babyy.. oh yeah.. i opted for npco as my vocation.. national police cadet officer.. ur frenly neighbourhood mata mata. hee.. aprt of me realli wants to experience the everyday challenges of crimes n stuff.. but i would have to say.. im more into it cos of the free driving license that i can acquire.. =x hope i realli can get it. wish me luck buttheads.

and yeah ns police trainin is not tat bad, realli. =] thank god i got enlisted for police. =P

bout my heart fit, theres only one thing i could say.. it was worth the wait and yeahh.. the word to describe right now would be 'blissful'.! =]

okk, so i guess u noe why i cant be updatin daily.. maybe every book out.? i'll try.. as for now.. this bloody mangkok of urs would like to keluar baris and get some rest.. realli tired..

e1rwan: start to a brand new year.. slowly lettin u buttheads into what uve been missin so far..

singbeats & bayfest.

2008-08-29T04:40:00.001+08:00

th3atr3 0f dr3am5 presents,

i would like to spread love around by advertising this. a band called 'mercy may cry' with rockers like powerhouse vocalist named fitancredi, a craziee guitarist 'aliff' n a crazee bassist 'muddy' in that band will be having a gig on the 30th august 2008, saturday. starts at 3pm . with them as the opening act.!! don't miss it, or live to regret it.

hit songs like their new original 'what you did' and a cover of paramore 'let the flames begin' will be performed..

venue: arthouse, playden. 7 bux per tix onli.

ps: damn is that of a good deal or what. u watch a freakin stinkin muvee for a friggin expensive rip-off price of 10 bux per tix on weekends just 2hr long duration maxed but not want to catch a rock-like-headbangin gig for just 7 bux that last for more than 4 hours at least with not only just a band but many bands performing, than you're a sucker.

i would also like to spread the peace around as well.. replugios will be havin an acoustic performin night at kallang rooftop on the 30th august 2008, saturday. starts at 7pm. tix sold at 14 bux per head. line ups ranging from fit, wan n zaty.. how could u missed out on these idols. than its your lost, too badd.

the idols would be bringing songs from paramore 'adore', bon jovi 'living on a prayer', natasha beddingfield 'soulmate' and many many more..

i simply cannot wait for tomorrow. a day dedicated for music. a mixed of singfest and baybeats. tomorrow, i shall call it a singbeats/bayfest day. okk lame, finee.

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dear blackhole,

i, e1rwan, is officially still lookin for khakis to catch 4bia on cinema screen. anyone up for a good scare.? it cannot be that bad. hit me up please. thanks.

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e1rwan: saving up for singbeats tix
e1rwan: breakin piggy bank for bayfest tix
e1rwan: findin khakis..

longest walk home.

2008-08-28T02:02:00.006+08:00

dear blackhole,

im friggin' broke right noww, realli. it sucks. i totalli cannot wait for the next pay day. i need a breather. sigh.

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time still tickin,
days are drawing nearer..
it seems so slow,
but it felt so fast..

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here's a fun fact. dya know tat i had my very own 'big walk' the other night. i kinda like missed the last train to boon lay. so i was caught up at jurong east station. the train service ended there. it was 1:10am already, if im not mistaken. i couldnt take a cab since i was already broke. yep, you guessed it right. i walked all the way home. jurong east - chinese garden - lakeside - boonlay - my house.

i walked along all the mrt tracklines. meaning i would have to walk just beside the jurong lake from chinese garden till lakeside. thot it would be nice and beautiful under e shimmerin light from the moon. boi, was i god damn wrong.! it was creepy, somehow. tskk.

thank god, it wasn't rainin or i'd be drenched. eerie feelin it was, walkin the long unearthed roads *haha, e1rwan exagerates again*. the orange night lamps over-towering above me. it did get to me after i had walk some distance.. it was kinda makin' me feel a lil dizzy.. not kiddin. i feel as though im goina 'pitam' anitime.. it was a breezy cool night but still i was all wet in my own perspiration. tskk.

e1rwan: no onee, alonee.

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my apology to all those who have tried to contact me on my mobile phone. my 2-year-old sony ericsson w810i has just died out on me. =( so much memories. i'll get a brand new hp soon. will keep u peeps noted. but a sweetheart girl was willing to lend her old phone to me for the time being till i get myself a new one. so yeah. sorry for the hassle. thanks, realli appreciate it.

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th3atr3 0f dr3am5 presents,

'kallang roar' e movie was good, realli. The story was very 'smangat-kind' and patriotic. BUT, the soccer scenes was simply embarrassing and disappointin. =( sigh. overall, its not a MUST to watch but its NICE to watch. i'll leave it to u peeps. centralized trainin, haha. cool or whatt. 'UNTOK BANGSA DAN NEGARA, MAJULAH.!'. HAHA.

you peeps might just wanna stay a lil longer after the movie for e credits. watch out for the real names of the penang players. all are so unique and rare, just somethin random stuff for u guys to check out. okk, lame but realli. =P

on a serious note. they should get actors who realli knows how to play soccer to shoot the soccer scenes. they make local soccer look realli badd. no jokee. embarassing.

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e1rwan: kallang ROARS.!

depends.?

2008-08-19T01:23:00.004+08:00

theatre of dreams presents.

i guess it realli depends on how the reader realli inteprete n reads it. an angsty post could turn out to be hilarious. tskk. people, do try readin out bloggers' entries aloud. hmm. somehow it's much more fun tat way, realli.

and it seems like almost everyone has discovered tis lil quiet space of mine. i guess its no secret animore, not tat it was to begin with. its just hidden. tats all. =] so to all the freshies to tis page, people like zul, asrenee and fithriyah. e founder of this space would like to humbly and warmly welcome you peeps. feel free to roam into e1rwan's world, where crap and nonsense had played a huge role in his life. heh. enjoyy.

poeple, you have got to check out tis local film. i know i would. =X though its no 'shaolin soccer' kinda blockbuster.. err still its.. err.. just go catch it lurh. dun ask why. come on. support local films will ya! passion for football.! relive it.! =] ole, kallang roar.!

i just cant waitt, even if i hafta watch it alone. for your info, it'll only be shown by cathay and lido. Golden Village, you suckk.~ except for your hotdogs.

before i end, i'll leave you guys with something u can chuckle about. can you guys actually picture me to shape young minds, guidin them thru their education and make them soar wit flyin colours for their examinations. okk, that sound a lil exagerated. picture this, e1rwan teaching/tutoring. haha. yeah yeah.. laugh ur ass off. haha. yeah, weird.~

e1rwan: i think i've settled wit somethin, hmm..

sickk.

2008-08-13T02:42:00.003+08:00

theatre of dreams present,

i'm recoverin.. i thinkk.. seriousli, i've been down with cough, sore throat, flu, fever and headache. i'm not exageratin. it's like a sudden ambush of virus all at one time. i shivered, had cold sweats, was runnin a temperature n yeah i had difficulty swallowing my own saliva and not forgettin i friggin lost my voice. i sounded like a hard gAy, realli.!

i'm gettin better, i thinkk.. currently havin cough, a slight sore throat, n blocked nose oni. =]

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dear blackhole,

okk, i'm soo bumped out right noww. came across somethin. well, i've tried n i've helped.. but not much i knoww.. even if i were to make myself free.. i can freakin choose not to help out at all since im like freakin sickk alreadi. godd, i was workin till like wee hrs till 3am in e mornin, got home and could onli like get my eyes shut at 4 plus nearin 5am afta i've washed up n stuff. i woke up a few hrs later at 9am i think, to freakin help out though i cough like hell, my throat was like killin me n i had to strain myself just to freakin talk.

its not like i'm out there watchin e fireworks by e bay enjoyin myself. i did not even stay home to rest and recover nor did i watch e freakin boring ndp celebration on tV. i was freakin workin, stinkin myself up wit e popcorn stench, servin all those no lifers customers who just coudnt watch rented movies at home but simply chooses to come to e cinema to catch a freakin expensive new shows.

still, thats not an excuse. damn. i know im partly at fault. maybe fully at fault. i wasnt inform what time to come, how it'll go and stuff.. e least i could do was to ask maybe.. yeah.. i did apologised. cant change a freakin damn thing now. so yeah. sincereli i'd like to apologise. its his brother's big day. his family. who wouldnt be pissed off. i would to, puttin myself in his shoes. i'm sorri bro, realli.
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from e1rwan to all,

to any avid readers out there who actually bothers to read my blog space. yeah, all my plans had to be put on hold for now. cos im freakin sick, freakin lazy to realli take care of myself to get better. haha. i'll update again soon. rightt.

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e1rwan: givin away, givin up.. hmm.

61..

2008-08-07T02:51:00.003+08:00

theatre of dreams presents,

its official.

startin from this moment on. i'm goina plan and execute. not to waste. or at least try not to waste my life away. till e time comes, where they say its another life turnin experience.

here's for a start:
-update my blogg space. (e past bout me)
-update my frensta profile. (cobwebs covered)
-update my itouch. - (so in need of new music)
-start workin out againn. (im freakin unfit, im a joke)

not much of an important plan. but at least i got somethin to do now.

my journey:
i was a toddler - kindergarten.
i was a kidd - primary school.
i was a teenager - high school.
i am a young adult - polytechnic.
i am a young man.? - National Service. (NS)

it'll be 61 days from now. 2 months from now. i'm goin in leavin everythin behind.

not forgettin. i'll update what u guys have been missin for almost a month in my life next entry.

e1rwan: goin thru another phase in his life.

impossible to findd..

2008-06-23T01:30:00.002+08:00

i thot this song is nicee.. thot i'd share.. here goess..

secondahand serenade - fall for you
--
The best thing about tonight’s that we’re not fighting
It couldn’t be that we have been this way before
I know you don’t think that I am trying
I know you’re wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind

I won’t live to see another day
I swear its true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you that I would never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breath

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It’s impossible to find

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I’m yours to keep

And hold onto your words
‘Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you’re asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find..

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just wanna post a lil shout out to all e june babies similar to me. happy birthday.

1st june - jianqiang aka 'TOKOK' heh.
4th june - kevin aka rio heh.
5th june - qistina aka cathay's po.
6th june - dearest GRANDMA. =]
8th june - kimberly.
9th june - dearest daeng nur fithriyah. =]
13th june - e1rwan & dexta. =]
16th june - dearest mak long. me aunt.
19th june - nabilah. me cuz.
22nd june - natasha.
27th june - joseph. hyfc bro.
29th june - maisara aka sarah. my cuz.

lotsa them uh.? pheww..
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i know my post on my graduation and birthday is long overdue. i just don't know how to blog about it. kinda lazy to upload photos and stuff.. so here goess..

on both events and days i've only got few words to describe how it wass..
special & memorable.
i couldnt have asked for more.. realli.. i'm realli happi.

i've gotten myself lotsa chocolates and cards this year.. =]
not forgettin some cash from my family members. =]
and once again yet another year i got another gift. a brand new wallet. =]
daeng nur fithriyah. thank you so much. =]

i seriouli would like to mention all e names but better not as i mite missed out some..
To those who have remembered, wished, celebrate and surprised me.. from e bottom of my heart i thank you, realli appreciate it. =] you guys rockk.

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e1rwan: fall for you, a girl like you is impossible to findd..
e1rwan: i'm rooting for germany to win euro 2008.

the big Y.

2008-06-18T03:06:00.006+08:00

why was he chosen.?
and not me.
why am i always the one who get snubbed away.?
and not himm.

why do i always get pushed away.?
and not him.
why does he always get to be with her.?
and not me.

why can he make her his girl.?
and i cant.
why do i have to know her later.?
and not him.

why me, and not him.?
why him, and not me.?
whyy..
...

sometimes i just wonder, it got me thinkin..
what more can i asked for, i shouldnt ask for anythin more..
i must be happy, i need to be satisfied..

...

if you truly cherish and love that person..
just be youself, and not by forcing, controllin nor hiding your inner self..
you wouldnt mind bein patient, and continue to do what you want and need for that someone..
if you deserve that special someone, they'll eventually be yours..
if not, it is just not meant to be..
only time will tell, only time can tell..

...

that's life, take it as it is..
experience and embrace the journey..

...

e1rwan: missin e old e1rwan, where no one knows..

i'm not dead.

2008-06-16T02:22:00.006+08:00

yeahh, people.. i'm pretty much alive and kickinn..
not dead just yet..

i've got so much to say..
has been so much down parts in previous posts..
tskk..

intended to share bout my graduation day and my birthday.
but kinda feel sleepy suddenly noww.. wit lotsa photos to show too..
will update later this week when im more free and feel like typin it all outt..
so i guess e next entry would make my blog e 'theatre of dreams' instead of the black hole.. =]

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somethin random..

feelings. - e1rwan

one day i can feel so low,
low enough as though i'm dead..
dark and un-moving, lifeless it seems..
don't know how, don't know why,
i started to breathe again..
i see light, i felt my soul again..

tears at first, so much..
smile in e end, so wide..

its cos of her..
she's the angel, who sprung nature in me.
thank you.
-

power. -e1rwan

one day, your heart beats so strong,
another day, it might skip a beat..
one day, like a green leaf debut itself into e world..
another day, it withers away fallin to the ground..

today, you lay still..
so weak, so sick..
tomorrow, you get up..
so alive, so active..

painful to see, a sight that she breathed so hard..
eased to see, a sight from 4th storey high smilin back at me
worried i was, couldnt bear to see her like tat..
glad i was, to see her back on her feet..

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repunzel,
take care of you i will,
till you get well..
well, that is all i want.
so, get better soon. =]

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e1rwan: so much to share next time..
e1rwan: sleepy alreadyy..
e1rwan: so in need of updatin his space and frensta.
e1rwan: wishes repunzel well.. take care. =]
e1rwan: no words to could weigh how much she meant to him..

THANKS =]

2008-04-09T13:02:00.003+08:00

dearest black hole,

thanks, i feel like pouring out my heart to u again..

im tired..
and i think i'm fallin sick..
shit.

im feelin so weak,
but im tryina to get back on my feet.
it just seem so hardd..

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are your friends realli ur friends.?
if u want to hear only the good stuff..
then all they hafta do is just lie..
sometime truth hurts, they're just bein frank..

i rather own friends who hurts me by tellin e truth..
then having frens who hurt me by tellin lies..

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i shouldn't have seen what i see..
though it small, it just caught me..
by accident, i saw his & her true happiness
for that it made my heart sunk..

i shouldn't have wait and kept waiting..
though i didn't mind, it just caught me..
by natural, i realise who u truly should be with..
for that it made my heart sunk..

i shouldn't have gone where i went..
though i knew it, it just caught me..
only right, i will end up alone at the end of it..
for that it made my heart sunk..

i saw and i noticedd..
i learnt and i kneww..
i felt and i experienced..
i'm used to this, i'll get use to this..

on a random time like yesterday,
it just got me thinkin and relecting back..
somehow it made me feel sucky.. *shrugs*
wonderin why..

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i wishh..
to be in someone eles's shoes right now..
to be feeling all the love he receives from e girl..
to be feeling all the care & concern he gets from e girl..
to be feeling touched when someone is actually worried bout you the whole nightt..
to be feeling how lucky to get be with the girl..
to be sharing half his life with e girll..
to know that he'll never be alone
to know that e girl is always by his side..
to let the whole world know she's with you..
lastly to get to call e girl your own..

how i wishh..
just to be the guy.

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people don't always get everythin they want. its just e harsh reality of life..
as for now, i'm goina salvage whatever i have wit her..
i've lost a place again to be her guy, so i'll fight for a place to be her twin soulmate..
i'll try make up for all the wrongdoings and sins i've done to her..
i'll get back up to my feet, and do all tat i will!

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e1rwan: trip over a small bump in road called 'life'
e1rwan: tries to get back up on his feet on his ownn..
e1rwan: seriously fallin ill.
e1rwan: simple yet impossible wish.

chrissy gamee

2008-04-04T00:47:00.003+08:00

i'm bored, so thanks to chrissy for taggin me.. here i'll do thiss game thingy.? hmm..

How to Play:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press next for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
5. Tag 5 people.

How are you feeling today?
40 oz - d12 (dirty dozen)
-err, im pretty much sober noww.. hmm..

Will you get far in life?
just like a pill - pink
-so i guess its true.. i'm goina be like a pill.. end up dissolving or digested..
all man has got to die then rott one day.. haha

How do your friends see you?
officially missing you - tamia
-i dun think any of my frens are missin e irritatin e1rwan rite noww.. haha..

Will you get married?
she's no you - jessea mccartney
-no link but yeahh.. no ideaa.. sorri..

What's your best friend theme song?
where is the love - b.e.p feat justin timberlake
nah, this song is so gayy.. haha =X

What is the story of your life?
that's when i love you - aslyn
-hmm, no link again.. sorri no ideaa..

What was high school like?
that's what you get - paramore
-hmm, yeapp this is what i get now for slackin in high school.. poly lifee.. not jC path.. too badd..

How can you get ahead in life?
show me the meaning of being lonely - bsb
haha, wtF.? no linkk.. so randomm..

Whats the best thing about your friends?
long way to go - cassie
no idea how to link this song to my friends.. sorri.. haha weirdd..

What’s in store for this weekend?
when it rains - fit (replug)
haha good one.. if it rains.. no plans lorr.! haha

Describe your grandparents.
time is running out - muse
F**k.!!!! nooo! plsssssss! i love my one only grandma leftt.. pls dun leave just yett.. =X

How’s your life going?
buat aku tersenyum - sheila on 7
hmm, am i smilin currently.. haha.. klah.. life has been pleasant for me.. *rolling eyes* tskk..

What song will they play at your funeral?
i miss you - good charlotte
hahaaaa.! aww im touchh..

How does the world see you?
helena - mcr
hmm.. helena.?

Will you have a happy life?
scars - papa roach
-okk soo not a happy kinda songg.. dammit.. dun let tis be truee..=X

Do people secretly lust after you?
numb/encore - linkin park & jay z
once again.. im clueless.. no link.. so yeah.. sorri

How can you make yourself happy?
and then we kiss - britney spears
haha, kiss me and i'll be happy.. mwahh! haha

What should you do with your life?
me love - sean kingston
haha, yeah.. love everyone! me love to u peeps! =]

Will you ever have children?
buttons - pcd
buttons n children.? no link~ hmm..

What song would you strip to?
the missing frame - AFI
tis is so not a song to be strippin to.. ahahaa

What does your mum think of you?
help me - nick carter
haha, true.. im always troublin me mom. =X

What is your deep, dark secret?
it doesn't matta - wyclef jean feat 'The Rock'
HAHAHAA! good one. it doesnt matta!

What is your mortal enemy’s theme song?
when you say nothing at all - ronan keating
haha i think my enemy would b a gayboi if e theme song is tis onee..

What’s your personality like?
never gone - bsb
i'll never be gone if u need me? cheh! like real liddat.. ah pui!

What song will be played at your wedding?
thriving ivory - angels on the moon
actually quite nice lei this song!! reallii.. soothingg

5 persons to tag..
1) fit fit
2) siasiwani
3) hanafio
4) malix
5) glass

e1rwan: so lost. hais.

a big jerkk..

2008-03-20T13:43:00.002+08:00

a lil short story bout a carpenter..

this carpenter wants to fix this broken piece of furniture for a fren of his..
it took him a lot of time..
as time flew by..
the furniture, from a shattered old looking junk..
now becoming a whole a again..
the carpenter was as usual doing his normal fixing..
he was foolish to get his eyes off his goal..
he got attracted to the furniture..
he started to become selfish and want it for himself..
for his last knock on the furniture,
he realli hammered his hand good..
he then realises..
he has finished his job..
there's nothin else he could do..
he part with it with so much pain to bear..
with so much things he had done..
he wet the furniture with his tears..
bidding goodbye..
and he moved on looking for other piece of woodpiece to fix..
--

i couldnt get myself to sleep..
lots of things flashes thru my mindd..
questions and answers..

all tat leads to one notion i can think of..
i really hate myself.
i hate a guy by the name of irwan.
not just any irwan but..
a guy who claimed himself to be called..
e1rwan.

a big A hole, fcuker, shithead and not forgettin a jerkk..
somethin i haf just gotta admitt..
he deserves what he gott..
--

let me share u a story about this person..

i have this fren
who i had known all my life..
and thinks that i knew him well..
i had nothin against him..
not untill noww..

he is someone i know tat wouldnt hurt a girl..
wouldnt make a girl worry bout him..
wouldnt make a girl sad till she tears up..
especially on someone she realli likes and and cared for..

tis time..
he went to farr..
i know he knows what he had done..
for tat i can never forgive him..

he likes tis girl..
a girl who was already happy lovin someone else..
but he still tries to get into the picture..
and made her life so freakin miserable..

couldnt he get it..
after being turn down nicely for so many times.!
why did he still continue to force his way in..
she had chosen her guy again.. and its not him again..

by force she had given in to him..
like an angel she was bein nice..
he had been given a chance to prove..
for a few days it lasted..
he couldnt make it last longer..

he was a joke right from the start..
he shud haf stop hurtin her..
knowin she wud never haf the heart to hurt him..
she tries to hint him nicely again and again..
but he is simply stubborn and continued..
to make her life miserable..

a few times she already told him to forget bout her..
but he insisted he could bring her 'happiness'..
he so called 'waited' for her to decided who'd she pick..
when he already knew it wont be him..

the waiting period for her decision was actually..
a period of time tat he had wasted her time..
to get back together with the one she had always loved..

cos of him,
she parted with her love..
cos of him,
she had to bear the pain being away from her love..

without him,
she would have been wit someone she truly love all the while..

i conclude.
he has right from the start made the life of the girl tat he truly cared for miserable..
somethin no apology can make up for it..
somethin i would hate him and never forgive him.

--

i got to experience alot of my first with her..
like an angel she was,
she let me experience all my last with her..
no amount or number of 'thank you' is enough to let you know..

--

i cannot hide it anymore..
i cannot pretend anymore..
i don't know why..
i'd thot i'm used to it..
i'd thot i'd be stronger by noww.

i guess once again i'm wrong..
screw me big time.. im a loser..

--
why just why.?

why do i always have to go through this..
why do i always like a girl whom i'll never end up with..
why do i always have to be the one who looks back and see a girl that i truly cared for walkin away with some other guyy..
why do i always have lose to another guy..
why cant i be better than the other guys..
why cant i be with the girl i truly cared for..
why do i always have hurt myself..
why do i always get punish with thiss..
why is love always against me..
whyy..
whyy..
WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO TO WIN HER HEARTTT!!
WHEN WILL I EVER HAVE HER TO BE WITH ME!?

I AM SERIOUSLY TIRED OF FACING THIS AND GOING THROUGH THISSSSS.!!!!!

FUCK, IM BREAKING DOWN.

--
e1rwan = loser
e1rwan = jerk
e1rwan = meanfreak
e1rwan = heartbreaker
e1rwan = sucker
e1rwan = useless
e1rwan = BASTARD
e1rwan = fcuker
e1rwan = A hole.

irwan hates e1rwan

people beware of him.. you think you know him, but you have no idea.. you will regret.. you will come to hate of him.. dun let his true inner self be shown.. just don't..

--

okk, im so goina be late for work.. i'm so goina be lookin like a zombie at workk.. to all the customers i'll b serving with no life.. im sorri..

please lemme stop thinkin about this.. the only way is when i fell sleep with no dreams.. a part of me realli wish i dun hafta wake up..

--
here's a lil prayer for her..

tat tis time.. it'll be more everlasting relationship tat you will have with him.. and stay happi always with him.. =]
dun be lookin back on th e past, look forward and head towards the brighter side in front of you together with him..

insya'Allah, everything will turn out AWESOME for you.. you totally deserve what you get right now.. =] the good stuff that i've been tellin ya.. and im happi for youu =]

--
dear blackhole,

i thank you for stickin by me.. suckin up yet another random rant.. if only you were a real person.. could you talk to me and tell me what to do now.. i really am lost.. could you tell me what i could do now.. can you talk to meee.. i want someone to turn to.. anyone out theree.. blackhole, i am so down right noww im talkin crap.. HAHA i hink im goin crazy..
--

''i'll never lose my way to get to her,
all i have to do is follow the trail of my teardrops..
that i left when i walk home,
from her place, away from her..
-e1rwan

''if you could hear my heart's whisper, you will weep.. -e1rwan

''you will always have a place in my heart.. -e1rwan

''tryna to make someone forgive you is easy,
keep trying to apologize and make up for it..
but how can you forgive yourself,
when you cannot make up to yourself.? -e1rwan

e1rwan shooting star:
-e1rwan truly wishes to be someone else, to be him who got to be with her..

e1rwan: lost
e1rwan: hates himself.
e1rwan: cannot forgive himself.
e1rwan: deserves what he gets.

fallenn..

2008-03-03T02:42:00.003+08:00

chris brown - fallen angel
--
If I could, take a trip, to outer space
She would be the one, I will see
When I get, to heavens gate
She would welcome me with her arms, open wide, and a smile
Will shadow me brighter than the sun
She hasn’t had a fair chance, so I’ll give her one
Let me tell you who she is, yeah

She’s a fallen angel, sent from heaven up above
She’s a fallen angel, waitin for me to love her, yeah
(Know that she’s)
She’s a fallen angel, take your judgment off her
I know, that she’s a fallen angel

You know, I could
Help her mend, her broken wings
So she can fly again
But I don’t, wanna lose everything that I’ve gained
Turnin me a selfish man (oh)
Cause without em my heart just don’t go, no more (no more)
I couldn’t take the pain, from watchin her fly away
So say that you’ll stay
She’s mine

She’s a fallen angel, (ooh) sent from heaven up above
She’s a fallen angel, waitin for me to love her, yeah
(Know that she’s) She’s a fallen angel, so take your judgment off her
I know, that she’s a fallen angel

Don’t you
Baby don’t you (don’t you worry) worry
I’m gon help you (I’m gon help you ) fly(I’m gon help you fly)

Just take me under yo (take me under) wings,
And we can reach the (we can reach the) sky(we can reach the sky)
Baby don’t you (don‘t you worry) worry,
I’m gon help you (I’m gon help you ) fly
(I’m gon help you fly)
Yo mama, don’t you (take me under) worry
you gon reach the (we can reach the) sky
(we can reach the sky)
She’s a…

She’s a fallen angel, (hey hey) sent from heaven up above, just for me
She’s a fallen angel, waitin for me to wrap my heart around her, know
(Know that she’s) She’s a fallen angel, makin due with all the judgment (no)
I know, that she’s (yeah) a fallen angel (ooh ahh)
Baby I know
I know that they done hurt you
But I’m here
Let’s take it all away
So if you let me…You know what, just put your heart in my hands
And everything they say, I take it back

Like this…[reversed last verse]
You don’t mean nothing, [reversed line]
I don’t want ya, [reversed line]
I don’t need ya, [reversed line]
Never loved ya, [reversed line]
You’re nobody, [reversed line]
And ‘ll never make it, [reversed line]
You’re a mistake (ooh), [reversed line]
--

nice beat to the songg.. with nice words to it..

wanna take tis time to wish malix to recover soon..
sorri to hear he got into a bad accident..
fio n me visited him e other day.. good to see him doin okk from waist up only.. =X
quick recover ya.. there's no keeper like him, realli.!
once u recovered call me down and we'll blaze e court ya! heh..

dont know if i'm bump out or depress.. or whatever this feelin is..
how do i describe.. a sunken feelin or a burnin rage.?
i dunnoe and its just sucky.

some things are better left unknown.?
ignorance is bliss.?
bullshit.

dun force, try get the picture..
who am i.?
play along.. only thing i'm good at.
or is it the only thing i can do now.?

it makes me wonder,
would i rather..
have a choice to choose.?
or
have no say and wait till it happen.?

screw everythin..
goodness, im so rantin like a child.. grow up!
haha..

okk blackhole, only you could bare with my crap.. i thank you for that..
not my sis,
not my brudders,
not even my friends,
nor even my parents..

--
here's a lil history bout me blog.. i call it my 'theatre of dreams' inspired by old trafford the red devils.. but yeahh.. it so only suit the good posts, displayin all the stuff i experience.. so yeah.. now it has an alter ego and so i gotta give it another name, my 'blackhole' suckin up all e rantings and craps i am feelin.. haha.. this is my space.. and i'll do what i like =]

gosh.. even a blog has a dual personality.. tskk.. this space of mine have gone thru alot of ups and downs with me.. its like a parent to me, a sister, a brother, a girlfren, a friend.. my everythin.. haha..

e1rwan loves his theatre of dreams..
e1rwan loves his blackhole..

fantasize or dreamin

2008-02-19T14:15:00.002+08:00

my heart - paramore:
--

I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone

Stay with me, this is what I need, please?

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard A sound, the sound of my only hope

This time I will be listening.

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
This heart, it beats, beats for only you

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
(My heart, it beats for you)

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart, my heart is yours
(It beats, beats for only you. My heart is your's)

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart, my heart is yours
(Please don't go now, Please don't fade away)
My heart is yours
(Please don't go now, Please don't fade away)
My heart is yours
My heart is yours
(Please don't go now, Please don't fade away)
My heart is yours
My heart is...yours
my heart is yours...

--
ps: the song will always remind me of herr..

--

my guardian angel - the red jumpsuit apparatus

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away, Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

ps: this one's for her.. - e1rwan
--

am i dreamin or fantasizing.?
why does it always have to be the opposite of reality..
anihoo, better start sayin prayers b4 sleepin thenn.. haha..

e1rwan: will update bout his mundane life in the next entry..

-till then.. =]

beautiful

2008-02-13T23:48:00.003+08:00

sampai menutup mata - acha septriasa
--

Embun di pagi buta
Menebarkan bau asa
Detik demi detik ku hitung
Inikah saat ku pergi

Oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
Berikanlah aku hidup
Takkan ku sakiti dia
Hukum aku bila terjadi

Aku tak mudah untuk mencintai
Aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
Aku tak mudah mengatakan
Aku jatuh cinta

Senandungku hanya untuk cinta
Tirakatku hanya untuk engkau
Tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta
Sampai ku menutup mata
Cintaku sampai ku menutup mata

Oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
Berikanlah aku hidup
Takkan ku sakiti dia
Hukum aku bila terjadi

~it was one of the most beautiful song i've heard sung to me
...as though it was sung by an angel..

-------------

usah lepaskan - taufik batisah
--

Yang terindah terlukis di bibir mu
Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu sebegitu
Pudar kah sudah cinta yang ku beri
Bewarna warni segalaYang dijanjikan ia

Usah biarku bersendirian
Usah biar hati mu di tawan
Usah biar diri ku disini
Seorang menunngu tanpa teman

Usah lepas genggaman tangan mu
Usah biar semua berlaluUsah terlupa perasaan hati
Pertama kali kita bertemu
Usah lepaskan

Tak mudah ku melupa segala yang berlalu
Ku ingin selalu bersama mu

Ku tak peduli apa sebabnya
Engkau dan dia harus bersama
Mendungnya langit bila berkata
Kita patutnya masih bercinta

Usah lepaskan
Usah lepaskan

Yang terindah
Terlukis di bibir mu
Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu
Sebegitu…

~if i could, i would.. it means so much.. if only i could deliver it beautifull to youu..

e1rwan question himself: tryin too hard.? or simply not doin enough.?
e1rwan feelings: is he really happi.? or is he realli sad.?
e1rwan: have i changed.?

i'll wait..

2008-01-29T01:45:00.000+08:00

i did what i should have done long ago..
i did what my heart told me to and no more what my minds ask me to..
i've been hiding for so long, starting to show itself on its own..
i've been telling lies all the while, its begginin to portray the truth slowly..

confession he tries to write..

he is sick and tired, of watching..
he is sick and tired, of bein 2nd best..
he is sick and tired, of givin in..
he is sick and tired, of loving but not havin..

he is taking a shot, he nows wait..

now with his palm wide open, he will wait..
for as long as she needs, he will wait..
waiting for his palm to get the stroke of answer from her..
be it good or bad.. he waits for her words..

for now.. he'll just do what he could.
till she decides.. he waits..
he will wait..

a promise he made, he wont talk bout it no more..
he'll keep his words..
and so he waits for her decision..
he will wait..

e1rwan: with one palm awaiting for her stroke of words..
e1rwan: willing to wait for as long as she takes, cos she's worthwhile to him..
e1rwan: waiting..
e1rwan: waits..

what is it noww.?

2008-01-25T01:28:00.001+08:00

he just don't know..

was it a mistake for her..
for him it certainly was not..
does she regret it now..
he is not feelin any regrets for sure..
at the end of the day, this got me lookin back and wonderr..

did he caught her at the moment of her weakness..
did he force her into that thinking..
did she feel anything or just felt sorry for him..
did he ask for too much..
at the end of the day, this got me lookin back and wonderr..

will he ever win her heart, he tries his best but will she barge..
is she treating him the same or will she give him more..
is he a dear to her, or just another peer to her..
does she prefer before or does she prefer it now..
at the end of the day, this got me lookin back and wonderr..

he is not sure what he have now..
is he not doin enough, or is he overdoin things..
he doesn't know what could assure him..
feeling this way he just cannot help it..
at the end of the day, this got me lookin back and wonderr..

this is what he wants, he'll try change the situation for the better..
this is what he yearns, his heart has always been with her..
paranoia he avoids, that he thinks too muchh..
pessimistic he avoids, that he keeps thinkin for the worse..
at the end of the day, he should be thinking..

he should be thankful for what he have now and pray for a better day with her tomorrow..
it is still early and things will only get better, insya'Allah..
only time will tell what will happen next..
as for now.. he should be smiling and so should he be making her smile too..
content with what he has, he shouldn't ask for more.. =]

e1rwan: hoping he'll not continue to clap with one hand only..
e1rwan: in summer =]
e1rwan: cherishes the beautiful night..

sorryy..

2008-01-11T00:44:00.000+08:00

i guess actin away is futile..

wanted to change the link to my blog to make it personal again, but 'e1rwan' was simply mee..
wanted to stay away for a few mths to make it seem as though the blog is realli dead, seems more and more people got to know of it instead..

haf been hidin in isolation away from herr.. never wanting her to knoww.. he should haf seen this comin.. how long can he hidee.. now that the truth his unveiled.. complication arises..

to her, he is sorryy..

--

truth reveals...
-his true colours:- selfish, stubborn and just plain dumbb..
--he is sorry..
-his intention:- to make himself feel good, he made her feels badd..
--he is sorry..
-he figured out:- his e root of all causes..
--he is sorry.. (he truly is..)
-her cry:- twice he made her tear..
--he is sorry..

things to clear...
-she made things clear, but he was just plain stubborn..
-she got what she wants, but he was just plain selfish..
-she didnt lead him on, but he was just plain idiotic stupid..
--she was never in the wrongg, he was..

-she knows what she truly wants..
-she got what she truly wants..
-she like what she truly got..
--she was never a fooll, he was..

--

there are too many times he said he was sorry..
but it does really come from one place in him..
deep and sincere he is pleadin of herr..
tat she one day will, accept his appology..

ps: he hope with this entry, it'll be the last time she enters this lair of nonsensical craps where no words are exact and exageration is the art of the made up life fantasy..

--

once he tried to lay out his hand to guide her through the year..
she didnt need itt..
now he lays his hand to question her belief in him still..
will she grab his hand firmly and walk with him,
or hold it softly with both her hands but walks awayy..

e1rwan: his heart got the better of his head..
e1rwan: misses homee..
e1rwan wants: tuck him into bed and say everythin will be alright, please..

emptyy.

2007-11-06T00:08:00.000+08:00

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I want to fill this new frame
But its empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
Its been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty

Its empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I've even wondered
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

ooohh~

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty
We're empty
We're empty

courtesy by the click five - empty

--

an awesome song.. real deep..

who he tryna kid sayin he's all alright..
who he tryna bluff pretendin as if nothin had happen..
he may fool everyone,
but he cannot fool himselff..

he's maskin a smile,
so hard for it to come from the heart..
faking it awayy..

his heart now..
feels heart-less..
it's emptyy..

--

okk back from hiatus.. and yeahh.. apparently siaswanova n his girl got to know of me blogg.. hmm.. aniway.. wanna congrats to everyone who got attached when i was away.. here goes e couple list:
- fit & a'an
- zulgigi & hanasend
- siaswanova & azreen
- adyam & hapizza
- fathin & aszri
- erma & soapy
- boirouk & e1rwan =x oops.. haha gay shits.

i guess for most it was the month where love blossoms.. =] wishin them to an everlasting relationship.! sorry to hear bout naqiah n iasky.. so yeahh.. hope they'll find a betta half for themselves soon..

raya was pretty simple for me this year.. =] attachment has been quite hectic for me of late.. haiss.. my weekly report is 3 weeks due, mid-term interim report due next week, n i've yet to compile data for my test wafer results due TMR!! matii, tentu matii~ and here i am bloggin ehk! tskk.. typical e1rwan..
oh yeah not forgettin my csm PI partna b'day.! Chen Weiting.! friday.. she'll be turnin 91. haha..

oh yeah FAS islandwide league has started.. as usual.. dun think team westridge will make it thru again.. so yeah, i'm just goina make the best out of nothin.. and yeah.. anyone has 'sleeq - hiccups'.. do send me me the song if u guys haf it ya.?

k, me and me droopy eyes goina turn in already... will update soon.? err.. heh..
--

"God i know there's a path for everyone,
i must believe and keep holding onn.."
-courtesy of taufik batisah - holding on (berserah)

pixie will do e talkinn..

2007-09-22T01:28:00.000+08:00

i'm pickin up the pieces..

movin on.. tryin to make it seem as though nothin had happen..

-

my attachment is gettin better..

chartered semiconductor manufacturing (csm) woodlands.

daily 800am-530pm..

wakin up as early as 6am.. and reachin home around 6pm.. no life i tell yaa..

gotta thank people like hyrul ouch ouch, jiahui tui tui and my partner weiting caosia, kwangyee, aungbak, chaw chaw, phyu phyu aisha and godfrey for makin life in csm more lively.. if not for them.. i'd be dead by now.. serious.!

anihoo had team building thingy goin on for my department today.. went over to bottle tree park at yishun.. toopid but quite fun.. got to know more people there.. bunch of frenly people.. lucky weiting was there..my hero.. here's what i gotta say bout korean people workin in my department.. cute, funny, sporting, weird and fun people.. =] sang ho, kim, choo n park.. they simply rockk laa.. will talk more bout them next time..

wanna mention bout muttons at midnight.. they realli make my day.. err night.. whatever it iss.. i laugh to myself listenin to them.. they're bunch of hilarious wankers lah.! i am seriously recommendin you guys out there to listen to them every weekdays at night 10pm-2am.. =] thanks mutton.. or i'd be so down thinkin of somethin elsee.. mutton rocks.!

i'd like to give my shout out to rockairul bk.! 11th september.. he's servin his NS.! MAT CD.. heh =p.. got to play soccer wit him 10th september for e last time b4 he goes in.. =] did i mention he's botak alreadyy.. heh..
another shout out goes to adyam & hapizza.. =] cheers to both of ya.! cherish one another eh =p soo cute together.. yuckk =X

oh yeahh wanna mention about a gig i went.. it was awesome.. realli.. she rockk the stage.. =] amk, scarlet city gig..

thanks fio for goin wit me. =].. he got to see ur long lost sista.. so its a blessin in disguise.. heh..

i'd like to take this opportunity to thank amsyar & fio.. for bein there for me.. =] hearin my toopid crappy problems.. i realli appreciate u guys. =]

not forgettin all the concerns from alfro, malix, chrissy, huilin.. u guys rock my world. heh =]

anihoo, now its the fasting month.. wanna make full use of it.. i hope it'll help me clear n straighten out my thots.. insya'allah.. i wanna get ready to raya.! heh..

e1rwan wishes: her to get well soon.. hope its nothin serious.. tc..

e1rwan takin it as it iss..

a friend, i miss herr..

history repeats..

2007-08-31T00:20:00.000+08:00

once again history repeated itself..
the exact same scenario.!
it's like dejavu..
so used to itt..
so numb..

i hate itt.. it hurts..

i pretend as if everythin's okk..
found out by mistake..
it sucks, really feels like shit..
but i expected that already..
how contradicting..

i hate itt.. i feel like a sucker..

she finally got her happiness..
she's happi..
that's all that matter..
end of story..

my heart matter rest in peace..
history do repeat itself..
sick of it..
i give upp.. totally givin up in heart matters..
girls suck.! haha.. haiss..

attention to everyone.!
e1rwan has this history bout his love life of liking some girls who likes other guys, which they eventually end up together.. and yeahh.. e1rwan like a sucker cum loser end up walkin away.. lookin back at someone he realli likes happi with someone else.. tskk.. happen for so freakin mani times.. dammit.!

sucky date to remember :
- 21st august 2007
-the day she got her 'dearest'..
haiss..

e1rwan look helplessly to the girl he likes happy with someone else once againn..

my heart beg to differ..

2007-08-16T23:48:00.000+08:00

-my heart beg to differ-

i had this conversation with a gd friend of mine who happens to be really close to this special someone..

she asked:- irwan, are u really ok?
my mind replied:- yeahh, of course.. nothin's wrong.. =]
my heart said:- i'm numb.. =[

she asked:- how do you cope and handle when that special someone keeps on talkin bout another guy.?
my mind replied:- as long as she's happy, i'll be happy.. anihoo, i'm only her friend and as a fren i should help her get her happiness no matter whatt.. =]
my heart said:- it's killing me.. but what else can i do.. i already lost all hope of becomin the guy to care and concern for her.. e least i could do is help her get e guy she truly likes, hopin he would do what he have to.. it hurts.. =[

she said:- i really feel for you.. *pity or some sort cant really remember*
my mind said:- dun wurry bout me, im okk.. everything is going great for me.. u shud worry more bout her now.. pls take gd care of her k..
my heart said:- you shud be laughin at me.. for bein so dumb.. =(

thanks for her concern.. i really realised alot thru the talk i had wit herr.. thanks =]
thank goodness it wasn't my heart which replied back to the conversation i had wit her.. what my mind says was totally e opposite of what my heart felt.. tskk..

i really hope she keeps all these to herself and not leak outt.. i dun want to lose another thing with that special someone.. our close friendship..
cant let her know this kinda stuff and then the normal things that girls would do.. feel all awkward and then avoid that guy.. tskk.. cant afford thatt..

talkin to this gd fren of mine also made me realise somethin.. cos she's like also havin feelings for this guy.. but her situation is different.. that guy doesnt have anyone in mind nor has anyone he likess unlike in my situation.. so she still has hopes of gettin her happiness.. i realised.. i'm pursuin somethin which i shouldnt be tryin or even hope to get.. she has someone else in mind & in her heart for godsake.! wake up e1rwan.! is time i guess..

to my good friend.. hope she'll do whats good for her.. if waitin for him is makin her miserable.. move on k.. =] if not.. dun giffup yett. =]

--
this lucky ass guy vs e1rwan

mr luckyassguy
has great talent for music.
- owns an awesome rockin band
- has great powerful vocals
- able to melt her with his vocals
- great at producing original songs
- shred the guitar like nobody's business
- able to blew her away with his performances
- able to perform for her every single week
- able to jam with her
- got the looks
- able to expose her talent to e world
- able to teach her how to play e guitar
- he is mr nice.. mr sweet.. oni undecisive on what he wants..
- last of all.. he has always gotten her heart...

that is what he could offer to herr..

guess what i could offer.? seriously i could think of none..

e1rwan:-
- no talent.
- cant sing nor play instruments..
- squeak and has a soopa deep voice who sounds like a 40's..
- no looks like mrluckyassguy..
- nothin to impress her..
- not even good at somethin i like alott..

ive seriously got nothin.!
she realli likes music alot.. not tat i dont.. but unlike her.. she's realli good at it wich mr luckyassguy happens to be also good at and i dont.. why wouldn't she go for him right.. HAHA.. im such a loser.. who could only give her my support in the things she likess..

i could only give her my heartt..

sick and tired..

2007-08-14T19:16:00.000+08:00

i've tried, but just wasn't enough..
he has got it, but just didn't want it..

you just feel like givin a piece of your mind to him..

how can he not treasure herr..
how can he bare to hurt her so muchh..

screw him.. big timee..

she's depress..
i can feel for herr..
i truly understand the feeling..
i hope she'll be strongg..

i'm numb..
experiencing this for so many times..
never gotten someone i truly like..
there's always this other guyy..

it's official, these vocabulary are not in my dictionary no more..
love,
like,
heart matters..

i've always picture heart matters to be somethin beautiful..
though i've never experienced one before..
i conclude that it only paints an ugly picture for me every single time..
it hurts, it sucks..

heavy heart sank..

2007-07-30T23:09:00.000+08:00

truth hurts..
part of you just kill to know..
just wanna get it straight..

in the end..
you realise you're not that strong..
you cannot take the truth..

finally..
he has all along capture her heart..
only now she realises it..
she reveals it..

he meant so much to her..
those words meant alot..
if only he was you..

your heart never felt so heavy before, as though it sank..
you could feel it in your stomach, the sucky feelin
you just felt like cryin outt..

you felt like shit, so sucky..
all you could do, is wish for her happiness..
as you bid her goodbyee..

--

sick and tired of work already..

seriously, i've got nothin to look forward in my everyday life noww.. skools like soopa hectic.. work is soopa tiring.. i look forward to see or talk to no onee.. i'm just soopa tired.. feels like coopin myself up in my room slepin all day longg..

this is my only space i could let it all out.. this space is unknown, only to myself.. no one would understand.. and i know no one reads.. my very own personal space..

this is my blackhole suckin all my shitt..

e1rwan: feels like shit.
e1rwan: biddin goodbye.

disguise.

2007-07-16T00:04:00.000+08:00

okk, all the blockbusters period are officially over.! *phew* work can't get any busier than tat..

According to my fav:
-TRANSFORMERS.! (a must watch!!)
--> not just because of mikaila, e whole show is god damn good.!
-Spiderman 3.~ (a must to watch!!)
--> black spidey = soopa cool, story line = awesome
-Fantastic 4 : rise of silver surfer (cool to watch but not a must to watch)
--> silver sufer = soopa cool, story line = boringg
-Hairy pothead and the goblet of fire (cool to watch but not a must to watch)
--> all grown up.. haha

the other blockbusters are plain boringg. hahaa.. i might miss watchin transformers since almost all has caught it alreadyy.. so, thanks to iasky and adyam.. we caught it at JP GV.. =]

oh yeah, highlight for today was that i got to play street soccer at rulang.. as team westridge trainin was cancelled.. but not only with team bK, but also with some of team westridge peeps.! first time get to play together.. khalid, shyam, moks, pumaboi, fio, adyam, malix, rock, iananok, fiz bopeng, fiz fio.. =]

work:- soopa tiring.! due to catering, hairy pothead crowds and soopa long hours..
school:- busy days comin.. so much assignments.!
social:- i'm lucky to have great friends around me.
love life:- still pathetic as ever, what's new.. story of my life..

--
-only way-

i must try to let go..
i must try to stop believin..
i must not get in too deep..
i must know that you want me to do all that,
(but you're not sayin cos you're just too nice..)

it's the only wayy..

it hurts..
it's okk..
it'll just be another experience that i've been through before..
i know you cannot do anything to help, but be frank..

thanks, it's the only wayy..

but still, i'll always be there if ever u need me..
but still, i'll care for youu like i always do..
but still, the feeling will be there but i'll try not to show it..
i know i cannot force you to like me..

i guess it is the only wayy..

--
i'll understand..
i'll be alright..

this i promise, i will not let you feel bad because of this..
this i promise, i will not let you worry about me..
this i promise, i will always be fine in front of you..
this i promise, i will never show you the sadness in me..

this my heart says in sincere, you did nothing wrong but followed your heart..
this my heart says in sincere, i'll pray for your heart to settle down with happiness soon..

even if it is not me..
--

sucky feelin..

2007-07-08T19:08:00.000+08:00

okk, thanks iasky and fio who accompanied me to queens to get me self a new pair of soccer boots.. =] yeayness.~ but then, i didnt go for team westridge trainin.. tskk.. lazy-ass mee..

skool is startin to take it's toll on me.. so much stuff to doo.. MTS project report, MTS breadboarding hardware, WISP project research presentation, WFT labs, WFT quizes, FCS test, ICL tests & MQS project report and play.. suckyy.. soopa packed term..

k, one word for 'live earth' - BORING.! not that i don't support the reducing global warmin effort and stuff.. i'm just talkin 'bout the concert.. wasn't as good as i thot it'd bee.. hmm.. sorreyy

--

the feeling of sucky never fails to haunt me-

it feels sucky,
only to be able to fantasize..
it feels sucky,
to know reality is no where near your fantasy..

the reason, i might not knoww..
looks, age, chemistry..
all i could do was guess, cos i'm too afraid to ask..
final say, there wasn't any special feeling felt by you..

must admit, it felt easier that i'm making up myself e reason why..
must admit, might not be able to take those truth from you..
must admit, i had special feelings for you..
must admit, i was expecting no acceptance from you..

i realise after some time,
you deserve someone better,
someone who gives you happiness,
and that special feeling in youu.

don't have to say it..
don't have to show it..
thanks for doin what you did..
i get it now, sorry to put you through itt..

i was stupid,
what have i got to offer..
i got crazy,
why would i even have thots of it..

i was selfish,
knowin your heart belongs to someone else..
i got mean,
i still tried, i'm sorry..

you got suitors, many of them..
good or bad, you'll soon find out..
all seem really tryin hard..
not that i don't, trust me on that..

i knew all those guys whose after your heart,
if they're not winning,
what makes me think i'd have a chance..
all of them have somethin to give, what do i have.?

i don't know how you put up with me..
made you irritated, pissed off & even cried..
but you still carved a smile, behind those sadness & anger..
simply you're just too nicee..

can't deny, you're someone special to me..
can't deny, that i want to be by your side..
sorry, i know it's all impossible..
sorry, it's just me fantasizin bout u and me..

thank you, you gave me the strength..
thank you, you gave me wisdom..
thank you, you brought out the best in me,
thank you, you made me realise..

i might not give you the special feelings,
it may seem that i'm pushin you away to some other guys,
trust me, it feels terribly sucky..
but i'm doin for you, pushin you towards your happiness..

it's ok, i've been there done tat..
so used to it, im feelin numb..
sometimes u just need someone to give u the lil nudge u need..
to move towards the happinness you deserve that lies ahead..

right from the start you've made it clear..
close of friends we'll always be..
it's just me, my feelings got e better of me..
i won't ask for more as long as you're happy with it..

-''Only time will tell..
-''i'm your wannabe guy masquerading as your best friends..

thrashin.!

2007-07-02T00:29:00.000+08:00

team westridge 8 vs 1 team police kins (qmt). adyam, iasky, shaiful, pumaboi.. i can't even remember who else scored.. but i clearly remembered i miss a one on one opportunity.. sucka.! anyhoo, venue was HYSS.! haha.. huayi secondary school.. my old secondary school.. so i guess it was a good game since we won.. my first game with team westridge afta so long mia.. oh yeahh, i'm so in need of a new boot, hais.. thanks to saswanova, i've got a new shin guard.. =]

kk, seriously horror show nowadays sucks.! i fell asleep when i watched 'puaka tebing biru' earlier today.. tskk..
anihoo watched the game team singapore 0 vs 3 team australia with the lights of viduka and harry kewel (liverpool) in the team on tv the other day at naqiah's b'day thingy.. i must say singapore did quite well.. except for a few lapses and the ever so many chances they fail to take.! tskk..
goodbye old national stadium, hello new sports hub.! =]

happy b'day to naqiah (30th june) & maisarah (29th june) aka betty boop.! haha
goodness, june realli is a birthday month.. jian qiang aka tokok (1st june), k3vin (4th june), my lovely grandma's (6th june), kimberly (8th june), fitancredi (9th june), dexta & me (13th june), mak long, my aunt (16th june), nabilah (19th june), maisarah & naqiah as i've mentioned.. *phew*

btw payday came already, and so is gst 7% thingy.. will things ever get cheaper some day.?
anihoo, till now i've yet to watch transformer.. damn.. its a must watch.! megan fox, here i come.. hee..
oh yeahh, accordin to huilin and chrissy, the casts of HEROES are comin to town.? as in hayden panettiere aka claire will be here.? wouldn't that be cool.?
check this out:->http://www.nbc.com/Heroes/heroesworldtour/

e1rwan: in need of a new soccer boots.!
e1rwan: heroes casts comin to singapore.. hayden aka claire.. wooo~
e1rwan: wanna catch transformer.! optimus prime & megan fox hee..

"-i'm your wannabe guy masquerading as your best friend..

back to school..

2007-06-25T00:34:00.000+08:00

officially, term break is over.. sucky~ goina go back to skool and get back the sucky common test results.. yeah, word of the day would be 'sucky'..

at least, the last week of break.. i did get to go back to team westridge trainin.. i noe.. FINALLY.. and then, get to hang out with team bk.! at e beach.. =] been a while.. babat, alfa, adyam, amsyar, iasky, afai, rock, fio, malix and e1rwan... just got e photos from fio just now.. and uploaded some on frenster.. and yeahh.. thanks to alfa, i cant get this out of my head.. 'i'm walkin out..'

been watchin lotsa smallville lately.. but still havent got sick of kristin kreuk aka lana lang.. anihoo, goina divert my attention to heroes for a while and watch hayden.. hee.. =X

e1rwan: goin back to skool.. 'wished it was longerr..

'i can sense..
'now i can feel..
'then i can see..
'i think i understand, slowly gettin the picture..
'it's all about you, just want you to be happy..

-what's new, story of my life.. e1rwan..

flame on vs silver surfer

2007-06-18T00:27:00.000+08:00

alrightt.. caught the show fantastic 4: the rise of the silver surfer at e new cathay cineplex at amk hub..
bout e place.. lets just say it was quite spacious in between halls.. the lightin was cool.. the seats were comfy.. but the concess f&b area was kinda pathetic.. pretty small.. but hey they've got zapple for a dispenser drink choice.. and seriously no one can pop like the 'org kuat cathay', im talkin bout zul gigi, faroukin, saswanova & fit jane.. so this meant their popcorn isn't as nice as ours.. =X the cathay cineplex still rocks..

bout e show.. it was a simple plot and storyline.. expected.. but yeah the graphics were cool.. as in the ship.. and not forgettin the silver surfer.! SOOPA cool.. i knew he wasn't a bad guy.!! anihoo, dun wanna spoil da show for u guys.. so here's my verdict.. not a must to watch.. but its cool to watch.. =]

oh yeahh.. saw evelyn, shaiful, ming the quietest cook ever and amalina.. still the same old her.. all stress up bout her new responsbilities she's carryin noww.. tskk.. it's amazing when i come to think of how young she is yet she's doin e job.. nemind.. anihoo hope she'll do great there and could cry freely and have people to concern for her like how we would have cared for her back at the cathay..

oh yeahh.. once again, i've delayed my return to team westridge.. haha.. =X sorri kamal.. e weather didnt look tat good.. fio and malix were over at indonesia.. iasky had some dikir barat thingy goin on.. pumaboi told me to come down for trainin when he met me at workplace e night b4.. but he himself hadta leave early if he comes down.. so yeah.. in de end i decided not to turn up no mood since so lil ppl goina turn up and caught a muvee instead.. dun worri, i'll turn up 4 e imh competition to support u guys.. dun think i wanna play judgin by the state i am noww..

"-you always have a choice..

tat's all folks..

to smile or not to smile..

2007-06-14T01:24:00.000+08:00

usah lepaskan:~

usah lepas genggaman tangan mu
usah biar semua berlalu
usah terlupa perasaan hati
pertama kali kita bertemu

tak mudah ku melupa segala yang berlalu
ku ingin selalu bersama mu

ku tak peduli apa sebabnya
engkau dan dia harus bersama
mendungnya langit bila berkata
kita patutnya masih bercinta

usah biarku bersendirian
usah biar hati mu di tawan
usah biar diri ku di sini
seorang menunggu tanpa teman

yang terindah
terlukis di bibir mu
tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu
sebegitu

--

seribu tahun:~

rela ku menunggu mu seribu tahun lama lagi
tapi benar kah hidup ku kan selama ini
biar berputar utara selatan
ku tak putus harapan
sedia setia

rela ku mengejar mu seribu batu jauh lagi
tapi benar kah kaki ku kan tahan sepanjang jalan ini
biar membisu burung bersiulan Tenang lah gelombang lautan
ku masih setia

ada kah engkau yakin ini cinta
ada kah engkau pasti ini tuk selama lama nya
rela ku menunggu mu seribu tahun lama lagi
tapi benar kah hidup ku kan selama ini
biar berputar utara selatan
ku tak putus harapan
sedia setia..
--

officially a year older bloggin this.. and yeah, celebratin my b'day tis year was really a memorable one for me, might not be on da day itself but still i'd like to call it as mine.. not forgettin i'd like to thank all those who wished me.. and to fit and hana for gettin me a gift.!! =X paiseh gilerr..

alot of things occured for e past 2 mths where i didnt blog.. some good & some bad.. some nice & some crazily toopid.. i'm just goina skip all tat.. i guess i'll just start afresh wit this entry.. oh yeah, liked to thank benjio for the complete season 1 -5 of smallville.. woohoo, lana is soopa cutee.. and not forgettin thanks chrissy for complete season 1 of heroes.! damn is hayden soopa hot or whatt.! kk guys, out there.. another soopa hot chick to look out for would be from the muvee transformer, megan fox.! comin soonn..

ohh don't mind wit e lyrics of 'usah lepaskan' to be all jumbled up.. i just wrote what came to mind 1st..

so here goes bout me..
work life:
- kinda sucky, broke 2 glasses in front of EVERYONE.. tskk
- hadta wear formal white SHIT, which made me look ever so freakin funny, toopid & awful.. EVERYONE laughed.. tskk..
- i sucked at caterin, WILL NEVER EVER wanna do it again..

social life:- okk i guess, but dun realli like 'shrek' from my workplace.. arghh

academic matter:- will know my shitty common tests results when skool reopens.. tskk..

soccer life:- in need of gettin back to team westridge, team bk & team np.. aRghh

love life:- same old story, got used to it.. tskk

words: -'ignorance is bliss.. 'zeus & the pandora box..

tat's all folks..

everyone's updatinn..

2007-04-09T14:14:00.000+08:00

wahey, i'm actually updatinn..

realised everyone is back updatin religiously, malix at long last updated.. fio has changed his link.. and haha 'mapotatoehead' is also back bloggin.. so here i am.. might as well just update since i'm soopa free today.. not workin.. maybe thinkin of headin down to skool to get e books later..

skool reopenin soon, i'm a year 3 student.! haha.. no biggie deall.. but time sure do fly fast.. next thing i realise, i'll be out of skool, shaving my head and becomin a man in NS.! hmm..

my long hiatus has realli got nothin special occurance happenin to me, i've just been workin, watchin muvees, kickin ard some ball.. thats it.. pathetic uhh.? have been missin out alot on westridge trainin.. =X sorri kamal..

oh yeah, i did get to play at 'fico sports hub' at jurong wit iasky, adyam, fio & malix.! yeayya.~ it was alright i guess.. somethin similar to 'the cage' at kallang.. oni tis one is nearer to me and cheaper.! =]

oh lately there's this anugerah audition thingy goin on at j.e entertainment center.. lotsa ppl i know participated.. 'bk bros' specially came down wantin to support 'rock', but dier punya hebat, he didnt wake up for his audition e next day.. haha.. and only now i realise.. i'm workin at a place full of talented ppl.! the Cathay.. fit, hazwan, syafirul, rahmatullah.. they sure can singg.. i bet aszri and hana cud have joined too if they wanted too.. may one day these bunch of people appear on tv.. =] *insya'allah..

thanks to chrissy, i'm quite addicted to ciara - like a boi.. diddy's - last night too isnt bad at all.. but the song is soopa longg.. haha.. kk think i'm goin off now.. havin a bad tummy ache..

here's a quick recap:-
e1rwan's social life : great =]
e1rwan's passion for soccer: never died =]
e1rwan's love life : still sucky as ever..
e1rwan's work life: great dependin who i'm workin withh.. =]
e1rwan's family: sihat sihat alhamdullilah =]

babicuee..

2007-03-04T15:20:00.000+08:00

bbq'd chicken,
bbq'd hotdogs,
bbq'd crabmeat,
bbq'd corns,

.. and did i mentioned sunflower seeds + strawberry soda.. all tat equals to me bloated.! =] e chicken was abit salty, must be from all e chef's perspiration.. haha.. yuckk.! hotdogs from e chef's butt crackk.. eeww..

all tat happen at ntuc costa sand resort at sentosaa.. westridge gatherin..

e1rwan: 'so used to this..'

2 mth of blogg breakk..

2007-02-26T15:24:00.000+08:00

okk, currently havin' my break.. done with my 2nd year.. hopin' to pass all my modules and not to repeat any of 'em.. can't afford to repeatt.. dun wanna come back another semester doin e same old shit wastin' my time and money.. =X 14th march - results dayy.. and did i mention i can't fail or no attachment for me!!

kk, let's see what i've been doin for my past week of breakk.. WORK.! diligently tryin to 'tekan' e double pay cause its cny.. and my sales are always above 1.5k.!! =] highest was 1.9k.. imagine all those thick bundles of cash in my cash drawer.. all those long Qs i served.. tiring but funn..
sucky thing is, shahul and rizal goina quit soon.. tskk.. realli like workin with shahul.. too badd.. =(

gotta play soccer again at last.!!! =] went for trainin with westridge yesterday.. didnt went well for mee.. haizz.. really losin itt.. hope to change.. =X anyhoo, did i mention i went to e cage again to play but only this time with alphian and his gang.. great bunch of ppl.. 4 hrs.! =] thanks alphian u da mann..

this fri to sun, will be havin chalet with team westridge, hope it'll be funn.. its been ages since i last went to chalet this kinda thingg.. so yeahh.. sentosa costa sand, here i comee.!!

here's somethin i qoute from e show 'mr and mrs smith' : "happy endings are stories that aren't finished yet.."

how truee.. tskk.

current music addictions:
**summer love - justin timeberlake
**what goes around, comes back around - justin timberlake
**love stoned - justin timberlake
**tick tock - lemar
**blind - lifehouse
**face down (acoustic version) - the red jumpsuit apparatus

yeahh, i come to realise justin timberlake futuresex/lovesound album is really good and he is a really talented unique artiste.. did u guys see he performed on grammys.? cool uhh.? ohh and taupig's pp9 performance was so like usher's 'caught up'.. tskk..

screw chelsea big timee.! they got themselve a silverware alreadyy.. and screw arsenal.! they've got talented young stars.! bright future for them.!! if only fabregas, aliadiere and walcott were to come to man utd and join rooney and ronaldo~ haven for young soccer prodigies~
ohh haha. typical gunners, lose alreadyy not happi, fight.!

and dexta is fuckin' racist.!!! haha

e1rwan: 14th march.!
e1rwan: sentosa costa sand - team westridge chalet
e1rwan: screw chelseaa.!

C is e alphabett..

2007-01-01T02:06:00.000+08:00

well wishes to all, christmas, hari raya aji and new year.~ =]

resolution.? as usual.. 3rd year in a roww.. same old qoute ''to be a better person in every way''..

2006.. good year for me.?
lets recall..
nahh.. what's past is past.. just goina look forwardd..
lets see what's in store for me in 2007.!

anyhoo, here's some interesting fact 'bout e1rwan's past employment background, here's the list of workplace i've used to work forr:
-'Cheers' ntuc - sales assistant
-'Changi airport - service guide
-'Crocs' asia - data entry
-'Cathay cineplex - ??

yeahh.. nothin' interesting actually.. just that all of 'em starts with e letter 'C'.. =] what's next.? another C-lettered workplace.?

guess what e1rwan got on e 1st day of new year.? a fever & a sore throat.! k betta whine no moree.. so sissifiedd..

officially this will be my 1st entry for year 2007.! =] more to comee.. if i my fingers itch..
officially shahul cathay is my 1st person i added to my frenster friends list in year 2007.!

e1rwan 2007: academics - graduate at one go.!
e1rwan 2007: work- less dependancy from parents
e1rwan 2007: love matter- can't really plan this thing, but i'm open to itt. =]

rain songg..

2006-12-20T22:06:00.000+08:00

i was able to look up at the sky not fearing of gettin' my face wet.! =] it didn't rain e whole dayy..

k seriously, i don't think i'm makin' good use of my 2 weeks term break.. damnn.. so in need of a plann.. i'll try to get down to bizness asap.. tskk.. or e time being i'll be lookin' forward to my cousin's engagement this sundayy thenn. =] hope everythin' goes well for himm..
--

she cherish the simple things n deeds from her past footprints..
she seemed happy being hold on by that guy..
if only it was mee..

her words of hopes and feelings were..
try not to anticipate..
only making you lose hope..
she will tryy..
i will try it too..

but still i'll give you a goo..
--

ohh.. and is this line catchy or whatt.. :
"she's the kinda girl who knows that i'm pursuing,
but she playing so hard to get.." - stuck up girl

here's cool onee..

"you know you want me,
but you act like you don't.
you know you wanna talk to me,
but you act like you won't.
you wanna be with me,
but you say that you don't.."
-stuck up girl

yepp me blog song alright.. enjoyy. =]

e1rwan: waking up to reality..

at least somethinn..

2006-12-18T01:58:00.000+08:00

well, here's a snappy postt..

saw kian leong when i was knockin' off.. it was nice to see him againn.. =]

haha, and slowly i'm findin' out all e westridgians girls.. saw mok's e last time i went home from workk.. and earlier on today, pumaboi brought his for a movie.. loll.. =P

and damn, united just lost out to e hamers.. arghh.. goina train at jalan besar stadium tmrr.! yessa.! =]

okk, got to talk to her for just a bitt, just a brief remark actually.. at least betta then nutin right.? smiled too.. yeah pathetic. i knoww.. tskk.. typical e1rwan.. - miss AEiou
may i know who's the lucky faggot who hold her.! freakin' china guy, hands off.! - miss AEiou

e1rwan: smilin' for just awhile..
e1rwan: lookin' forward to trainin, tmrr..

not feelin' too damn goodd..

2006-12-16T22:41:00.000+08:00

sorry, if i'm a lil cranky for this entryy.. if only ranting helps to realli make all your troubles disappear.. if onlyy..

common test woes.. fucked up papers.. maybe its just e idiotic lazy ass e1rwan who didnt prepare well.. one thing's for sure, re-test here i comee..
then comes e pdpr make up class on e 28th: solder, solder, solder.. ic chips + resistors + capacitors + wiring + leds + whatever shit thats included in e circuit.. e lecturer too, is so not making my life easier in that class.. arghh..
ohh did i mention, my i&e group hasn't had any progress 4 a month alreadyy.! damnn.!! + thats not all, mcte & wft projects still way behind e schedule.!! jialatt.! JOELL.!!.. ohh.. he's my project partnerr btw.. =] mcte layoutt + wft steps + i&e research + pdpr universal board + preparation for re-test.. damn am i not e busiest person in e world or whatt.!

ohh, did i mention i played like shit for westridge earlier on todayy.. e1rwan = lackin of sleep + not havin proper meals + his shitty schoolstuffs.. just can't get my game togetherr.. and i still think i can take on faizal n wakk.. hmph.. not my dayy.. but yeahh i admit elias park has talents & certainly can play as a teamm..

sigh sigh sighh, and some people can just 'bo layan' mee.. tsk.. whatever mann.. matters of e hearts just suckss to e core big timee.! i so need hitch right noww.. i suckkedd..

e1rwan: down & outt.. =[
e1rwan: needs hitch..
e1rwan: dreads skool, work and soccer.! just wanna sleep all day longg at hm..

afkk..

2006-12-06T01:23:00.000+08:00

here's an announcement i'd like to broadcast to all,

e1rwan will be mia for a while.. just a week or 2.. as he desperately needs to really sit and study.! (s&s) for his common test.. damn, i never fail to study at e 11th hourr.!

anyhoos got a game tmr for westridge against central park in e islandwide tourney at meridien jc.. half of me wants to play, the other half dread itt.. we'll see.. a good thing for me i don't have any i/s class tmr.. so maybe, i'll try to s&s.. wish me luck ayee..

oh yepp.. DOHA ASIAN games are so boringg.. singapore athletes are a bunch of disappointments.. tskk.. what happen to all those imported PR's.?? suckaa. i thot we have always been good in swimming(joscelin yeo), badminton (susilo), table tennis(jia wei) & bowling (remy ong).? ohh.. and don't even mention 'bout e football teamm.. goal 2010.? haha more likely 201000000 .. i guess we can only make it in sea games and tiger cup respectivelyy.. jialatt~

songs:
-usah lepaskan
-all because of you
-sombong
-stuck up girl
-holding on
-sesuatu janji
...

jury's verdict - originality and substance way betta than previous albumm.. =]

hmm.. seems like it'll be another endless waiting for mee, as i'm once again tryna clap with one hand - miss A
hmm.. it's official, she's e reason i'm lookin' forward to workin', made workin' alot more easier & 'fun'.?.. other than that, workin' is a dragg.. but i need lotsa $$ .. boohoo..

e1rwan: hope to be able to s&s immediatelyy.!
e1rwan: wish me luck for me common test peeps.!
e1rwan: mixed of hearts.. scheduledd..

a step forwardd..

2006-12-03T00:18:00.000+08:00

smiling from ear to ear right noww.. just like a sunkist..

my cd-rom drive for me lappy kinda like got a problemm.. driver shit thingy.. missing or corrupted error (code 39).. which fortunately i managed to solve it.. tap on me backk.. and all thanks to forum from majorgeeks.com =].. took a big risk by editin' my system registry.. haha sounds cheem.? loll.. enough 'bout thatt..

okk, so 2 games in 2 straight dayss.. friday team ngee ann 7 vs 0 sim, earlier today westridge 2 vs 2 hougang sports club.. a win and a draww.. =] acceptable results i guess.. and ermm just got myself a cramp on me right thighh.. which i consider isn't so badd..
oh yarr.. it's official, i'm e most hated player in SIM noww.. hee, e refering + e kick on e head will explain it all.. =X

so let's make plans 4 tmrr while i wait for the 1am red devils game on tvv laterr.. one of them must surely be cleanin' + tidyin' up my room.. thenn maybe abit of preparing for common test if i'm not lazy that iss.. hee.. lastly goin' jalan jalan cari slipa wit me budd malix at queens if e plan is not cancelled.. and i just got me self a new bag pack for schh! =P and damn, goina go broke again pretty much soon..

haha, i so deserved to kena fired.. so much for 'rewangg', where soccer is more likely e reason.. no replacing, too badd! =P common test comin'.. can't workk.. haha.. 1001 reasons to why one should not workk.. tskk tskk.. jialatt..

e1rwan: miss nursy A, one step closerr.. =]

tmnt =]

2006-12-01T01:12:00.000+08:00

guess whats comin' back to e theatre near u soon.. comic heroess..

yep.. tmnt.! teenage mutant ninja turtles! haha.~ leonardo, michael angelo.. bla bla.. cant help itt.. my favourite cartoon heroes when i was young.. because of them.. my favourite pet has always been the turtles families since i was young.. softshells.? terapines.? rockshell.? tortoises.? u name itt..

dya know i actually did keep 2 terapines when i was young.. bought it at the size of my thumb and then grew to a size of size 4 soccer ball.! no joke it was that bigg alrightt.~ and then e saddest part came.. i had to release themm.. =( boohoo..

ass u cann see.. i'm all excited 'bout the show comin 26th april 2007.. haha yeahh still long way to goo.. just can't help it sorri.. caught a glimpse of the trailer at cathay just noww.. btw its a 3D graphic animated movie.. looks gr8 too mee though e turtles look a bit skinny.. loll..

2 gr8 movies comin' soon in the new year.. spideyman 3 & tnmt.! .. a must watch.!

let's see what else happened in my lifee.. oh yeahh.. i screwed up mpi lab test earlier on today big timee.! half of e lab couldnt be done.. told ya so.. i'm screwed.. thats for not muggin' for itt.. damn~ that's all for now folks..

ps: big shout out to thank faezaa.! she' da bestt.. hee =] hope everythin' will happen just rightt.. wish me luck.! -miss A

e1rwan: lookin' forward to spidey 3 & tmnt.!
e1rwan: another miss A.. tskk..

supermarket vulgarity..

2006-11-28T01:34:00.000+08:00

haha, a trip down to sheng shiong might not be suitable for kids.. exposure to vulgarities at risk.! ahaha.. survey done by our very own mr. Malix.. wakaka..

yep, its a veggie alright.. xiao bai chai.. and yeahh at one glance it could look as though it states 'siao cibai'.. haha.. so here i am, persuadin' the public to rest assure sheng shiong supermarkets are vulagrity-free =].. haha

turnin' in noww.. cause i'm goina suffer in 'pdpr class tmr.. damn.. that module sucks.!
my plans are to straighten things out with 'mpi' if possible and try pass the lab test on thurs then tryna complete the toopid colourful rainbow layout for mcte asap to settle down for the mini project next week.. we'll see if e1rwan's up to it to complete all those.. till then..

e1rwan: actually plannin' to do some school work.!! amaaazzzinnn..

'short'-ecp trip..

2006-11-27T02:07:00.000+08:00

currently watchin e red devils game takin' on chelsea.. half-time noww with the devils takin' the lead with louis saha's goal! =]

it was me sis b'day yesterday.. 25th nov.. so me aunt came down today to pass some prezziee to herr.. i did my part as a brother.. wished and got a prezzie for her =] though nothin' much, is e thot that counts. =] btw malix's b'day falls on e same day as my sis's.. so this entry goes to him, my childhood fren and me sis of course.. hapi b'day.!

malix came over me crib to change after work earlier today and he got a green packet from me mom.! haha b'day prezzie i guess.. so i guess he's e only guy to get green packet from me family this year.. though hari raya's overr.. and then we both went ecp for fiddy's belated bbq party.. rock, fio, jojo, adyam, iasky, iananok, malix, fiddy, apis, seri and amsyar turned up.. simple is the word =]

pity malix, damn shagged.

a bite out of everythin' by the iron chef iasky.. haha..

things are so unorganised for me noww.. common test comin' up, islandwide game, westridge trainin, school's trainin, workk & school.. yikes.. its amazin that i'm copin'.. i'll get things sorted out soon..

bgr.? crush.? love.? matters of e heart.? haha.. currently i'm single and happy.. peace =] no, i'm not attached to anyone and no, i'm not interested in anyone.! for real.. still e case where e girls are already attached or plain uninterested in me.. just sayin' this to clear some airs aroundd.. don't wanna get things so freakin' awkward.. neither do i wanna give false hopes to anyone.. just wanna be free for my chance in love life.. rumours go away, girls come againn.. haha

ps: oit faeza, quick find me that girl & get back to me =P and that sot seri still haven't pass me 'puteri ayu's number.. haha..

e1rwan: pissed off chelsea equalised..
e1rwan: packin' for school tmrr..

back from hiatus..

2006-11-25T01:57:00.000+08:00

okk i'm back from hiatus.. been REALLY REALLY busy lately.. no joke.. so much projects and practicals to work on this semesterr.. MPI (microprocessor programmin & interfacin), PDPR (some toopid shitt), WFT(wafer fab technology), MCTE(microchip tech)..

to add to that, academic curricullum time + CCAs + work = damn shagged, no life mann.. cant go out as much.. so here i am changin' me blog layout hopin' to religiously rant 'bout my daily life from now onwards..

till then, further details next time.. =] peace out..

i'm boredd..

2006-10-12T00:19:00.000+08:00

here's a quick onee..

broke fast with bK yesterday at mr teh tarik.. specially took half day at work just for this.. everythin' went smoothly.. a large round table fittin' all 11 of us, fio - malix - adyam - iasky - apiz - rock- amsya- babat- iananok- apiz blue kr bud - and muaa.. all had simple dishes.. =) then went to rulang to kick some ball.. damn.. should have brought my stuff especially me shoes.. now i've got a really big bad deep blisters on both feet.~ darn itt.. i hadta wear slippers to work earlier today.. and it also cost me to not attend westridge trainin' at gombak stadium.. =X well e bright side of it, i ended my long drought of barren football season break.. soccer sure can perk oneself up.! been a while since i last played with all the bK's comin' close to full attendance.. yeahh.. cheenaberg, yanprez, aidil and dajal were present too..

*ps: once again, went all weak on my knees.. it was only edi, and i couldn't put up a brave front to ask.. i wonder how i would react if it was arti.. ~sigh.. tskk..

i think joanne (crox) has the nicest handwriting i've ever seen in my 18++ years of life.! typical of a girl to have nice penmanship right.? but hers is outstanding.! simple yet sophisticated.. just somethin 'bout her handwritin' that caught me attentionn.. same goes for her signature.. tskk.. amazing work of art..

dexta, my twin chinaman brother has officially initiated a blog noww.. simple with no tagboard.. chinaman has nerves of steel.. haha.. goina link him after thiss.. let's see if he's entries are as controversial as ben's blogg.. will it be another haven for anti-zul.? shall wait and see what this computer option chinaman will doo to his blogg.. and nads new blog layout design is nicee but dont realli quite like e song.. i'm sure if kaiquan were to see, would be falling head over heel with it whereas benjio will just curse and swear the shit out of it.. haha.. yeapp its somethin related to simple plan.. haha..

idiott.. i wont be gettin' me pay that soon.. due to some unforseen cirumstances.. but it betta be soon.. or i'll burn down the whole OCC.!
i've changed the blog song temporarily 'till i can come up with somethin' that i really like.. dont mind the poor recording quality.. just enjoy itt temporarily.. all because of you - taufik batisah.. '.i crave for your presence, i yearn to hear youu..

e1rwan: goina get ready for the crunch match- england vs croatia.. euro 2008 qualifiers.
e1rwan: listenin' no more to chris brown- say goodbye..
e1rwan promotin': his video has been premiered already.. do catch it.. very smoothh indeed..

crox - mia

2006-09-26T21:57:00.000+08:00

i've got so much to write that it'll take one whole year just to finish readin' this entry.. since it's e weekend and i'm not workin' and practically all me frens are mia, lost in their own world = i got no plans.. so here out of boredness and free time i shall blog a soopa long onee.!

1st thing 1st,
sgi2.. hady won.. as predicted.. history really did repeat itself.. again a large landslide in percentage of e win.. a friggin' 70% mind youu.! watched e finals on tvv.. thot both finalist were deserving of their places.. as for e performances, paul took on the song dance, dance by F.O.B which i thot he did it superbly.. joakim as usual e joker.. mathilda e sucker diva-wannabe, certainly not in christina's league.. nurul amazingly brought 'public affair' cute-ly, but too bad she isn't a hot dumb blonde like jessica simpson or it would have been a perfect piece.. whereas jasmine, whom i think is gainin' weight is still e cutest of 'em all.. well as for the others.. lets just say.. i don't caree.. moving onn~ just goina say that the top 2 finalists totally doesnt have style of their own.. they practically dressed up like each otherr.! and yeahh.. the whatever hady's 'wings' song totally can't be compared to taupig's 'dreamy's one..

*ps: readin' e stuff above totally tells u i prefer 'taupig' as e singapore idol to 'kedy'..
*proven: sgi1 receives better public respond than sgi2 (extracted from straits times Life 27th sept '06)
*commotion: another racist stuff goin' ard yet againn.. tskk tskk.. *expected*
*no link*: tanya chua singin' a rock song without openin' her mouth.!, a legendary malay singer Rahimah Rahim singin' english songs and then a few young 'energy'-etic gays from taiwan came out singin in cheena for one and english the otherr.. tskk..
*do you know: Justin Ang fell into the moshpit during the show.! haha.! just like a rotten jackfruit.! and yeahh it was made into a big joke by Vernon A in muttons in e mornin' show for days till now..

okk.. singapore idol fever is gonee.. now divert your attention to dance floor.. haha.. *can't imagine* ~tskk

crocs finance office glass wall..

shall talk 'bout my temporary part-time job noww.. courtesy to kevin, i'm currently workin' at crocs.. not as a sales person.. just doin' some office workk.. haha.. u guessed it rightt.. data entry and stuff.. i know i know.. too 'sissy-fied'.. who cares.~ the pay's good.. $7/hr.. office hrs.. air conditioned office.. situated at orchid country club (OCC).. good facilities aroundd.. cheap malay food stall.. but yet often time still eat out at northpoint.. oh yeahh.. free shuttle bus service.. what more can i ask for right.? so why nott.? i've been workin' for 3 weeks alreadyy.. has been funn.. thanks to kevin, vanessa & jieying.. during breaks we all did bowling, poolin', bowling and more poolin'.. tskk tskk.. yep.. slackin' alot more instead of gettin to work on timee.. lunch time supposedly to only be an hr but of course, with all the activities we did.. u guys can understand.. extendin' the break time is neccessary! haha.. break/lunch = jolly good time..

spot me name there.? haha i get to work in a suite.! =p

*fun facts: kev, van, jy and me are huayians but of different batch.. haha.. to extend the network further.. kev, jy and me are rulangnites too(similarly different batch), too bad van's e odd one out heree.. this is what i call friendster.! *inter-related*

kinda like chevron uhh.? OCC

what i've experienced~ 80 percent of the population in e office are made up by females.. and yeahh.. now i truly understand e word 'office politics'.. and fyi.. girls bitchin' bout each other do exist in e office world.. haha.. courtesy of vanessa & tiffany.. i now know alot 'bout e inside stuff.. tskk~ office certainly reminds me of a classroom.. and btw i didn't get into the same office as kev, van, jieying.. there are 3 offices.. finance, order mangement and plannin' inventory.. jy was in the finance, kev and van got plannin' inventory and yeahh i got e last vacant partition-ed desk in the order management office.. lucky for me, crox are a bunch of friendly ppl~ lee lee, emily, garry and ling fei are my great supervisors.. thumbs upp for them~ and got to work with tiffany, whom i consider is my saviour, e person that could really keep me eyes wide open in e office.! hee~.. so here i'll take my chances to thankk all those who made e office a place more enjoyable to be in - irene (e lady wit e cute smile), tiffany (bike-chic), lee lee('hot' supervisor), lingfei (chinaman), garyy (old joker), guey chuan - (a malaysian PR) - kinda like gayfoong, lori woodard (tall white sweet lady) and not forgettin' kevin and 'vanessa & jieying' a.k.a (girls of distractions).. oh yeahh did i mention i saw mrs kong and wan qing at OCC.? hmmm..

spot my name again.? haha.. am i famous or whatt.. even their network system is named after me! hahaa~

*ps: i learnt alot about manners ever since workin for crox.!
*dya know: jieying is freakin' good around balls.! esp in bowlingg.! not forgettin' pool!
*warning: avoid playin' bowling and pool with e 'girls of distractions"~ you've been warned.
*unfairness: permanent staff gets to play paintball there for free and yeahh a soopa huge discounts on crocs footwear.! ~ haha, yeahh i know.. i'm askin' for too muchh..
*e1rwan's crox tombstone: 19th september 2006 -12th october 2006

~bilaa tiba bulan ramadann, sebulan berpuasaa..

haha.. i dont know whyy that festive song just struck me on e first day of the fasting month when i was on me way to workk.. weird and freakyy.. coz' i'm not usually into festive songs.! been fasting for 2 week alreadyy, and still goin' strong.. =) i guess when u grow older, temptations from those who pester u to eat aren't that great.. i've been thru all that at younger age in sch where i look at every other ppl around me eating at the canteen while i sit down and just look innocently at themm.. haha~ e gd old days.. and as usual went to terawih wit firaruz.. =) am i a god boi or whatt.. haha.. =P

psi~ what does e word tells uu, yep yep.. the haze days are back.. smokers' out there can save some money.. no need for cigarettes when they can practically just go out in the open and smoke the air all they want! haha..

here's some quick checks:--
-i wanna go to vivocity.. the new huge mall in singapore near harbourfrontt.. it's infrastructure is soopa solid.. it looks hip~ haha sori for my limited vocabularyy..
-me mom and grandma is recovering well for now.! =) and yeahh grandmama's condition when she's ill was frightenin' mann.. tskk
-went bugis kampong glam bazaar with me family, seriously nothin' much theree, except for lotsa food stalls and a stage for performances.. damn, was hopin' to get a glimpse of akhmar but too badd..~ hands down she's e most gorgeous celebrity suria ever haD!~
-since there isn't much things there.. we actually went to geylang bazaar on e very same night, only this time there's a wider variety of stalls.. and among e crowds.. there were yazid(ex-npfc), khairul(npfc-gombak prime) and pendek(westridge)..
-and of course.. got my baju kurung there.. =) hee.. what colour.? u'll find out soon, 24th october =)
-watched 'the island' - a great showw really, very unique.. and scarlet johansson is hott in e show.. and my god the show actually uses one of my favourite rides.! 2002 cadillac cien .! soopa solid mann~ btw another hot ride u can see in a movie would be from 'the click' the funny ass touching movie where adam sandler actually own 2003 cadillac sixteen.! my dream cars mann.. and there they ridin' them like nobody's bisnes.. tskk..

2002 cadillac cien

2003 cadillac sixteen~

-watched 'tangkai jering' - funny ass show.. and elly mazlyn is soopa cute, and i'm still wonderin' why yassin always get the cute oness..~

-watched 'the cinderella story' - hilary duff is so much different now then before, similarly like ashlee simpson and lindsay lohan, i really prefer them to have abit of flesh like they use to be than to be all boney like me right now.. tskk~ freak..

-haha yeahh yeahh.. all of 'em are old movies.. but i do have alot of new ones that i wanna watch thoughh.. just waitin' for the right timee.. hee~

-wanna thank chrissy yet again, for all the songs sent~ may our internet connection continue to be strong as ever, fast is e word.! haha

-my big apology goes to kelvin.!! hapi belated 18th b'day dude.! i shall remember u as e IMF guy noww..

-can't wait for my pay.!

-oh yeahh dya know dexta's plannin' to set up a blog! hahaha.! can't waitt..

-lastly, i miss playin soccer.~ boohoo~ school breaks are usually e time where i'm hot on my heels mann.. sighh.. only this time it's the opposite, been busy workin'.. tskk

so yeahh.. i guess it won't be that soon till i update again since this will probably last a lifetime for u guys to read.. haha soopa long entry.. enjoy dozing off~ haha..

one step forwardd, two steps backk..

2006-09-07T21:18:00.000+08:00

guess the songg has relayed the message wanted to be saidd.. it's crystal clearr noww.. she has moved onn.. she should.. with so many suitorss.. why waste them to settle for one right noww rightt.? hmm.. i bet she'll be happier noww.. =]
just too popular to handlee.. just ain't ready for too much too givee.. will settle for friends noww.. =)

hmm.. noww i've gotta straight things out wit my ownselff.. haha sound psycho i knoww.. but really.. one should get in touch with one's inner self first to really know what he or she desire, wants and needs.. when i lost my cellphone was when i realised somethinn.. shall continue to think 'bout itt..
woderin' if i ever goin' to get back what i lostt.. should have memorised those 8 numbers.. haizz..
hopin' the heart-stoppin' beautiful rare coincidence will come againn..

oh yarr.. its official.. history is repeating itselff for singapore idol.! ahaha.. final 3 are once again.. 2 guys and a girl:-
.-soulful taufik batisah = rasta hady mirza
.-rocker sylvester sim = soopa deep-voice jonathan leong
.-bom pee pee olinda cho = cute country girl jasmine
.-west side vs east side

so yeahh.. you guessed it right.. hady will take the crown this season.. =PpP only this timee the finalist are not from bukit batok & jurong east residence like taufik & sylvester.. this season, east side produce the talentts.. once again goina pity the female contestants.. too bad guy fans ain't too enthusiastic enough to waste their money to vote for the girl contestants like girl fans vote for their guy idols.. just take a look at jerry and joakim from season 1 and 2 respectivelyy.. they got no singin' talent yet thanks to their girl fans, they manage to stay in the competition for quite some timee.. tskk~

haha so yeahh.. as usuall aunty huilin is goin' against me 'bout who's goina take the title of singapore idol this season.. =pPp we shall see what's the outcome of it on the 25th of september.. bye to paul twohill for noww.. shall remember him for his own unique sense of style~ ahaha..

e1rwan: friends~
e1rwan: mina buku~
e1rwan: singapore idols~

say goodbyee..

2006-09-05T22:45:00.000+08:00

a piece of good news.. i don't have to wait till Hari Raya to collect my green packet to get myself a new cellphonee.. =] so yeahh.. still goin' to use the old numberr.. my line has been re-activatedd.. anythin' just msg or call me..

finally.. i got some time to sit down and watch 'she's the mann'.. as told by chrissy.. yeahh it was hilarious... amanda bynes.. tskk tskk.. the name says it all.. and no wonder FIFA has ban professional players from removing their tops to celebrate their goals in a soccer game.. haha.. this movie has too much nudity *(with amanda bynes involved)* at the soccer pitch.. haha.. i bet some guys would wanna watch the show right aboutt noww.. =PpP.. overall.. a funny show to catchh.. worth the timee =]
ps: don't expect too much of soccer skills being display out theree..

hmm.. heart felt:~
say goodbye - chris brown:
Look
We Gotta Talk
Dang! I know, I know
It's just some things
I gotta get off my chest
Alright
Yeah
Oh ooh oh ooh oh ooh oh

[VERSE 1]
Baby come here and sit down, let's talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so

[HOOK]
How do you let it go?
When you
You just don't know?
What's on
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand
Cause I kno...

[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
Oh
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

[VERSE 2]
But now your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Though I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know

[HOOK]
How do you let it go?
When you
You just don't know?
What's on
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say
We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see it?

[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
Oh
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

[BRIDGE]
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh [x2]
Do you hear me crying?
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
There's never a right time...

[CHORUS] [x2]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
Oh
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say (echos then fades) ..

e1rwan: has really got nothin' to sayy..

come what mayy..

2006-09-02T23:36:00.000+08:00

been staying at home alot latelyy.. taking good care of me momm.! =pPp really.!

i miss playin' soccer.! tskk. hope tmr's trainin' will not be cancelled againn.. plss.! rain don't pour~

siann~ here comes the sadd newss..
attention to all~ do not msg nor call me on my cellphone number anymoree.. yeapp.. you peeps guess it right.. i lost me cellphone.! so yeahh.. reach me by my home number.. or msn~

my lappy and tvv.. has been my anti-boredom friends.. ever since my cellphone has left mee.. =(

been watchin smallville season 1 *compliments to benjio* =) talkin' bout smallville.. you can never get enough of the dolly kristin kreuk a.k.a lana lang.. so yeahh.. since benjio is almost done downloadin' all the seasons.. i hope he'll be willing enough to help me burn all of them.~ hee.. plss.~ =X ..

i think i prefer watchin' 'miss teen usa' to miss universe or miss world or miss whatever there is out theree.. comparing it to other pageant competition this one has a whole a lot more cute ones.. common mann..you've gotta admit they're so freakin hott laa.~ sadly this year's a bit disappointing.. hmm.. '03 winner tami farrell has still gotta be my favourite of all.. =X

and i'm done watchin 'bring it on : all or nothing'.. haha yeahh.. some cheerleading moviee.. i know i know.. sissy for guys like me to watch.. but heyy guess who's the main actresss.? hayden panettiere.! she's so freakin' pretty laa.. watched her from the movie stripes, raising helen and this current one.. gugugaga~ she's soopa hott in this movie.. u peeps should check it outt.. too bad solange knowles isn't as hott as her sister beyonce knowles..

hayden penettiere.!

e1rwan: hayden panettiere.. gugugaga *drools*
e1rwan: "i can show you better than i can tell you"
e1rwan: tmr's plan is to finish watchin 'aeonflux' and 'she's the man'..
e1rwan: watchin' england thrashin' andorra currentlyy..
e1rwan: thinks Stevie G's is superb in the game.!

24th..

2006-08-25T00:58:00.000+08:00

end of semester 2.1..

think i screwed my papers really badd this time roundd.. so not lookin' forward to the results.. husshhh..

lobang anyone.? i wanna work.. some extra cash for myself.. and not forgettin.. soccer anyone.? its break timee.!!

my mom's okk.. at grandmama's place.. so yeahh.. give her a few weeks i think she'll be walkin' tall once againn.. =)

and yeahh.. epl's backk.! with manchester united in red hot formm! hee =PpP -die hard red devils-

so i guess with some free time i gott.. i'll probably do some cleanin' up.. and some 'creative' work b4 sch reopens.. must 'die die' make full use of me free time.!! shall stop here.. so not in e mood blabb noww..

current addicition:
**i'm more than useless - relient k
**i can't hate you anymore - nick lachey
**gallery - mario vasquez

e1rwan: freakin' tired..
e1rwan: flashin back memories of alexandra hospitall..

amazingly..

2006-08-10T00:21:00.000+08:00

amazingly.. tskk tskk.. so much things occured..

amazinglyy.. benjio got to know of me blogg.!!~ haha..
amazinglyy.. he even tagged.!

amazinglyy.. i got allocated to my first choice option 'micro-electronics'.! =) and zully got TP his last option.! tskk~

amazinglyy.. without fail i went out on all days this week to all my family functions.! =)
amazinglyy.. my plan to mugg for exams was side-tracked.. endin up me not doin anythinn..
*yeahh i know.. that's actually expected from me* =X

amazinglyy.. no thanks to dexta.. i got back addicted to playin' computer games.! pes5.~
amazinglyy.. no thanks to aqil.. he got me watchin all 33 episodes of 'one piece' in the past few days..
amazingly.. i find the show & characters awesome.! haha

amazinglyy.. i pass my maths CCT.! =))

amazingly.. i didnt wait for gayfoong to download pirated movies as i went to e cinema today to catch a show.! haha *i paid for an original movie* =PpP
amazinglyy.. it's 'the lake house'.!

amazinglyy.. westridge trainin was cancelled.! never b4.. haha

amazinglyy.. the time is half past midnyte alreadyy.. tskk.. time to crashh.!

amazinglyy.. i found all these simple small fry occuring amazingg..
amazinglyy.. i came back bloggin' this crapp..
*yeahh i know.. might as well dont blogg right.~*

amazinglyy.. singapore is 41 noww.. happy b'Day singapore.!

amazinglyy.. havin foop exam theory paper this friday but have yet to start!

e1rwan: findin' all these soo amazingg.!
e1rwan: screwing up his exams.!

time to shake some tail-feathers..

2006-07-16T12:51:00.000+08:00

i'm really gettin bored and lazy about bloggin'.. so, i might just practically go 'mia' one dayy.. i guess i'm more of a reader than a blogger, just like i am enjoyin' more listenin' to music & songs than to sing them.. =) so bloggers out there.. carry on bloggin, i'll be more than happy to read it as my bed-time storyy..

being a procrastinator that i am, it's startin' to take its toll on me.. damnn.. having acda, tP & del lab test this comin week.. not forgettin' telecommunication paper.! and also my i/s project presentation.. and yeahh like you've guessed it right.. i've done nothin to prepare for any of it.. crazy uhh.? it's time i shake some tail-feathers and get some work done.!

as for my major ranking option.. my 1st choice is 'micro-electronics'.. and i'm not regrettin.! let's just wait and see where i'll end up att.. as for team nP.. not goin to stress myself for that no more.. just goin to enjoy my time there and see how far i can reach.. =) well as u can see, even the best club like manchester united might missed out on rare talents or not owning the best players in the world, so i hope team np will notice a rare gem that i am and not leaving out one of its natural great talent.. haha =PpP

screwed~! i missed smallville and the ghost whisperer last fridayy.. siann. not goin to miss it again i hope.! as for sgi2.. i think that i'm gonna root for hady mirza.. he seems good.. so yeah.. e1rwan all out for hady mirza.. e next taufik batisah.? maybee.. oh yeahh if u catch the inter-school debates on suria channel yesterday night where temasek came out triumphant, i betcha didn't fail to notice the host right.? haha.. damn she's pretty.. runner-up for 'anugerah skrin' - akhmar.! =)

e1rwan: trying his luck later today.! - mina buku.

tagged.? i'm innocent..

2006-07-02T02:04:00.000+08:00

Rules:
#1. Do the following WITHOUT complaining.
#2. Choose 5 person to do this after you completed yours.
#3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged
#4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!"then do this.

i have been tagged.!!

10 Favourites:
Favorite Color: black, white and silver.?
Favorite Food: no preference to all the halal food =)
Favorite Song: relient k's songs are nicee..
Favorite Movie: Pirates of the Carribbean. Basically anything with Johnny depp in it. Really!
Favorite Sport: duhh~ the number 1 sport in the world soccer a.k.a football a.k.a fussball =)
Favourite Day Of the Week: saturday~ off dayy for mee..
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: vanilla with chocolate chips.!
CurrentCurrent Mood: downnn ahh.! =( ~englandd..
Clothes: normal tees and jeans..
Current Desktop: cadillac logo wallpaper
Current Toenail Color: not an emo punk poser~
Current Time: 2:18am ~waitin' for brazil's game..
Current Surroundings: silence.. ~downn..
Current Annoyance(s): the thoughts of portugal.! ~especially christiano ronaldo
Current Thought: should i wait for brazil's game later or sleep earlyy.??
First Best Friend: malix and aliff.?
First Crush: shhh.. i wanna let it outt.. articafalsya.! =X
First Movie: independence day..
First Piercing: none.. i don't wanna leakk.. =X ~lamee
First Lie: can't recall.. too many white lies. =PpP
First Music: humpty dumpty.?
First Car: 2003 cadillac sixteen.! ~dream on succka..
LastsLast Drink: always coca-cola.!
Car Ride: sent home from a soccer training..
Last Crush: hmm.. too private and confidential.. =PpP
Last Movie Seen: da vin ci code.! ~awesome.!
Last Phone Call: err.. fiza fio..
Last CD Played: taufik batisah.? ~haha

Have You Evers :
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: yuckk big noo ~a guy.?.
Have You Ever Broken the Law: playing soccer at void decks =X
Have You Ever Been Arrested: nope.. stern warning.. yess.. hee =X
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: nope.. ~too hum ji..
Have You Ever Been on TV: nahh.. the tv can withstand my weight i guess.. ~lamee
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: nahh~

5 things you're wearing:
1. singlet
2. soccer shorts
3. stand up speak up nike wristband
4. undergarments
5. nothin else ~really.!

4 things you've done today.
1. flagged a cab~
2. get in the cab~
3. asked the uncle where he wants to go instea~
4. smiled~
5. got out of the cab immediately..

3 things you can hear right now:
1. jack black's voice in school of rock movie on hbo
2. my sis and dad giggling to the show.
3. msn messenger..

things you can't live without.
1. my family and friends..
2. fussball.!

1 thing you do when you're bored.
1. sleep.!

And for the 5 people...
1. rozi (sis)
2. amina (ms banana)
3. fiza nemo
4. yong xun
5. sean
you peeps just got tagged.!
done.! just in time for brazil's gamee..
wasted my time for this! tskk.. courtesy of 'miss [aD]"

e1rwan: 've been tagged and tagged..

takin' things as it iss..

2006-06-27T22:22:00.000+08:00

boo.~

been busy.. but truthfully just plain lazy.. so much to sayy yet so numBb to type it all outt.. tryina complete all my assignments.. screw themm.. tskk.. seriously wouldn't give a damn if my common test results were good.. yeahh.. like any other times.. i screwed up my papers except for one which i'm still clueless 'bout, my foop result.. *prayin*

17th july here i come embracing youu.. TELECOMMUNICATION PRINCIPLES paper.!

might sound too childish for me.. but heyy.. 'high school musical' is nicee laa.. gabriella.~ *melts*
england still strugglin into the quarter finalss.. beckham still doin' his jobb.. =) i want either england or brazil to win this world cup.. let's see..

e1rwan: gabriella freakin' cutee laa..
e1rwan: back to schooll.. strugglin' once againn..
e1rwan: rootin' for england & brasil..
e1rwan: minah buku.~

13th june 1988

2006-06-13T23:46:00.000+08:00

18 years ago, on this very day 13th june, a child soccer prodigy was given birth to.. =PpP

as usual like every other birthday of mine, don't really feel much different like any normal days.. just that alot of people thought of me on this very day.. wishes and more wishes. =) feeling grand for a day..

would like to wish all my june brothers happy b'day too.!:
1st june: tokkok
4th june: kevin
13th june: dexta

yeahh.. my poly classmate was born on the same day as mee.. loll.. that makes 2 of my friends sharing the day with me.. dexta & jieying..

hmm.. i guess i'm 18 noww.. m18 movies here i come.. but still a NONO for me to beers and cigarettes though i'm legal to have it at my age noww.. =PpP

e1rwan: officially turned 18 todayy..
e1rwan: still young at heart.. =PpP
e1rwan: wondering what major achievements had occured for past 18 years of his lifee.??
e1rwan: thankk all who remembers his b'day todayy! =)

the word is overr..

2006-06-09T14:40:00.000+08:00

back from hiatus~ lotsa plans, but so lil timee..

i'm still havin' fever..not the american idol 5 mcpheever, nor the examination fever.. all that has past.. i'm havin' the world cup feva.! =)) can't wait to for the campaign to kick off tmr.! to all the guys.. enjoy the beautiful game.. and to all the girls.. enjoy watchin some cute guys kickin' around..

all my papers were killers! especially 'telecommunication principles' & 'foop'.. i'll prepare for the re-test soon.. as for now.. don't wanna think bout the papers no moree.. and did i mention examination period is a good time to 'cuci mata' .. =X hee~

i miss my home pc.~! and so i did my ipod updates.. so many new songs~ *bloated* =)
havin' 2 weeks of breakk.. determined to make full use of itt.! and before GSS ends.. i WILL buy somethin.! haha.. typical singaporeans.. yeahh i knoww.. and proud to be onee.. =PpP

so i'm left with rafael nadal to root for to win.. safin is ousted and so is ana ivanovich & vaidisova.. tskk, tennis is so gettin' into mee.. as for sgi2, it looks good for rahima rahim since she got into the final 12.. kudos to herr.. =)

e1rwan: gonna eat, sleep, talk and play football from now onn..
e1rwan: sufferin' from world cup feva.!

muggin' mode switched on..

2006-05-31T05:13:00.000+08:00

england's game just ended.. yeahh they won 3-1 over the hungarians.. great game =) but on other channel it's brazil's game.. and my word.. were they freakin' good or whatt.! at 70++ min leadin' by 7-0 already!.. they really play joga bonito mann.. tskk.. saw robinho goal and it was superb mann.. and did i mention theo walcott wasn't bad.. just 17 years & 25 days old.. he is already in england's team.. not forgettin' he has SOOPA HOTT GIRLFRIEND.!! and look at mee.. another 17 year old boy all the way across the globe who is strugglin' in everythin he does.. soccer, education & girls! distinct difference.. so unfair.. if only i was in theo's boots~

i'm just gonna carry on watchin' tV.. then get ready to school for flash project presentation.. wish me luckk.. =)

e1rwan: e total opposite of theo walcott.!
e1rwan: switchin' on muggin' mode for common test next weekk..

swensenn..

2006-05-28T13:46:00.000+08:00

yeapp.. that taylor hicks is the new crowned american idol.. yuckk.! the grey hair drunk soul patrol wanker.! =PpP anyhoo kinda unfair.. their debut single is different.! so obvious taylor's was way much nicer.. well at least mcpheever epidemic gets through all e way to e final just like i had predicted since day one of the audition phase.! she roCks.!

westridge game had been cancelled due to bad weatherr.. such a nice time to sleep.. =) just watched 'eight below'.. touchin' storyy.. there's just somethin' 'bout paul walker that makes him cool lah.. maybe his voice and the way he talks i guess..

common test week will be a week from noww.. less jolly, more toil.. and guess what comes after my last paper 9th june.? WOLD CUP FINAL GERMANY 2006.! muaha.. talk about right timing aye.! =PpP this is what i really say suffer 1st and enjoy later.. hee.. i sense world cup fever comin' .. go england go.!

now goin to carry on with my online tutorials.. oh and did i mention.. my sis treat me and my mom to swensen's for dinner yesterdayy. =PpP hee.. marvellous delicacies.!

e1rwan: strugglin' & sufferin' with the tutorials..

all happened so fastt..

2006-05-25T23:18:00.000+08:00

went jP to catch x-men 3 with a few of my classmates (last minute decision).. dexta, gayfoong, john, benjio, 'freeloader' & ahmed.. it wasn't the greatest of show.. neither was it a dull one.. so it was just alrightt for mee..
shadowcat wasn't as pretty as the cartoon character i had expected.. =X and jean grey aka phoenix.. was so called strongest of them all died an easy death by wolverine.. -_-'' .. what a turn off.. and did i mention jean grey looked like emily rose possesed by exorcist in the show.. =X haha cyclop was just an extra in e show.. his role was soopa short even i could have taken up e role.. loll.. =X enough bout it..

there's some gd show comin up in june.. seems fun to me as i watched their trailers.. 'just my luck' & 'the lake house'.. be sure to catch it ayee.. and damnn.. i've still yet to watched da vin ci code the movie.. arghh.. =(

gtg noww.. so much maths stuff i need to complete noww..

e1rwan: hates 'freeloader'
e1rwan: thinks x-men 3 was just okk..
e1rwan: struggling with em3a tutorial..
e1rwan: gettin' ready for em3a test tmrr..
e1rwan: movies & more movies..

fear of the unknown..

2006-05-21T21:45:00.000+08:00

1st thing first.. westridge losses out to team outsider.. must admit they freakin' good laa.. and i think my 1st touch is gettin' from bad to worse.. tskk.. jialatt..

as for singapore idol~ havent found anyone that caught my eye really.. but i was caught by surprise by rahima's presence.. and to her compliment, she was quite good seyy.. she sang some pocahontas song and heaven.. kudos to her talent in singin'.. but a turn off would be when she was shown drawin' 'MASHIMARO'.! -_-'' but okla she can also draw.. but if i'm not mistaken she's a sporty type girl..?? anyhoo i'm wishin' her e best for her singapore idol journey.. and here's a fun fact: dya peeps know she's from hyss.. haha and now i'm a bit just a bit proud of myself bein' a part of that school last time. too bad she's my junior a year younger.. dont really know her.. and correct me if i'm mistaken she's from my sports house too.. muahaha.. UBIN rOcks.!

damnn.. tmr em3a quiz.. integration by parts la.. trigo integration la.. differentiation la.. kanasai la.. e odds of me passin' for e test is soopa low man.!

e1rwan: rushin' thru' tutorials..
e1rwan: muggin' for maths quiz later..?? (maybe) hee =X
e1rwan: takin' it slow and steadyy..

so far behindd..

2006-05-15T00:15:00.000+08:00

just realised common test period is in 2 weeks time.. jialatt.. e new modules sucks man.. so freakin' hardd.. sigh~ guess how many papers i've to sit for.? yeapp.. a big fat number 5.! 5 alienated based papers.. wonderin' how i'll survive.. =(

today's game.. venue jurong west sec sch.. initially got lost.. all thanks to that boi afiz.. if not could have reached already.. westridge 3 vs 0 oaa.. some ex-westspring, ex-ngee ann & gombak players in e opponent squad.. surprised a lil'.. got scratched and bruises as usuall here and theree.. tummy hurts too.. =(

oh yeahh.~ if my eyes weren't playin' tricks on me.. i believe i saw cekgu erna at banquet when i was eatin' after e game.. hmm.. isn't she supposed to be in Malaysia furtherin' her studies.. hmm..

oh yeah.. i think e gym at clementi is very comfortable to have a workout regime.. courtesy to khalifah.. =)

e1rwan: off form.. body aches.. tummy hurts.. =(

i not stupid twoo..

2006-05-12T22:18:00.000+08:00

*in tears*~..

seriously.. e show 'i not stupid too 2' is superb.. 2 reactions throughout e movie.. laughin' & cryin'.. =X it's uber-ly touchin' & hilarious.. and yeahh.. e cast star has grown up alott.. anyhoo.. 2 thumbs up from me.. totally recommended to watch.. =)) promotin' local film.~

i guess you peeps are wondering why i'm talkin' 'bout a movie released so long ago.. 1st-ly, it's my 1st time watchin it & i liked it.. 2nd-ly, e original dvd bought from me and my sis was actually a gift for my mom~ happy mothers day.~! kinda early by a dayy.. i knoww.. =pPp who cares.. watched it together and had dinner treat by my momm.. =)) good food~ marvellous~ and did i mentioned my mom liked e gift too.. =PpP

still wondering 'bout e mystery song.. still clueless.. toopid radio deejays.. didn't say out e artist & title.. my wild guess tells me.. it's by will.i.am or bep.? whats e title.? anyone know.? care to tell me.. loll =X on e bright side.. i got a new song that i've wanted for some time.. =)) and so i did an ipod-update..

local movie ratings according to e1rwan charts:
1st- i not stupid too 2
2nd- home run
3rd- i not stupid
4th- one leg kicking

believe it or not.. those are the only local movies i've watched in my 17 years of life.. haha~ to all e moms out there.. happy mothers dayy~! and yar.. happy vesak dayy too.? siann.. last holiday for me before common test.. =((

oopss.. e show 'honey' is on hbo noww.. gotta go..

e1rwan: wishin' all moms happy mothers' dayy..

thailand hostingg..

2006-05-07T21:45:00.000+08:00

mtvasia awards show was crappy mann.. lack of stars.. lack of good performance.. poor startin' performance.. ending performance was poor too.. everything was ever so poor.! no impact at all.. totally monotonous and mundane.. waste of my time stayin' up late to watch e show.. e only highlights of e show for me was when e ever so suave taufik batisah & e ever so pretty tata young appeared..

courtesy to fio & siti.. now my ipod is updated with lotsa new songs.. hee =)

e1rwan: totally lostt.. =(

dedicated post..

2006-05-05T23:34:00.000+08:00

this post is dedicated to sean lee wen long.~ =)

happy 18th birthday dudee.. =) to my first ever friend i made back in secondary school.. "boi, you can anot ah.? need help.?"- hee.. first words to himm.. 1st ever partner in camp for orientation.. friendship still goin strong.. =)

ps: nice piercin'..

e1rwan: wishin' sean a happy 18th birthday.. all grown upp alreadyy.. haha

year 2.. 1st day..

2006-04-24T23:52:00.000+08:00

1st day as a year 2 student was a dragg.. modules all ever so chimm.. books ever so expensive.. bag ever so heavy too.! everywhere, places were swarmed by freshmens.. hope peace will be restored by next week.. =X *cross finger*

lionel bapok and ang wee siang are np students.. cool uhh.? happy to see themm todayy.. =)

e1rwan: lookin' out for yellow shirts people.. =X hee..
e1rwan: draggin' to school..
e1rwan: movie anyone.?

cosmos santos..

2006-04-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

last day of holiday for me before school ngee ann polytechnic is re-openin'.. sighh.. a part of me is excited.. but e other half isn't.. hope i'll have a great time in sch for this comin' new semesterr..

match at henderson sec sch today againts e giants cosmos santos.. hee.. we defeated them at e last gasp.. in your face.! loll.. a deserved win.. =) thot i was late.. but hey.. e referee.! a match official was even worse.! tskk.. anyhoo.. great gamee.. westridge 1 vs 0 cosmo santos.. phrase of e day ' isap buah ah'.. haha.. not from me.. but from an un-sporting manner-ed ang mohh guy..

and now i've gotta go find my stationaries for sch.. and then have an early night to wake up for tomorrow..

e1rwan: 'dude, where are my pens and pencils'
e1rwan: right shoulder hurts.. ouchh..

another one for e collectionn..

2006-04-22T23:12:00.000+08:00

soccer competition at mdis unicampus.. e pitch was a piece of crap.. muddy all overr.. opponents were mostly foreigners.. vietnamese, korean or japanese.. u name itt.. haha.. not making a mock about their accent when speaking english.. but seriously.. they sound funny and in a way cute too.. loll.. 'your feet is monsterr' & 'you are e best loser'.. good thing got free lunch after e competition.. we had budget attire.. hang ten.! overall.. great fun joining this competitionn..

team name: kodomo-tachi a.k.a e best loser
members: khalifa. khalid. fio. boi afeez. bryan. fadz. malix.
achievement: 3rd.! a bronze trophy. medals & $$
casualty: malix swollen pinky finger. me swollen right ankle. fio bruised knee. khalid lack of sleep made him nuts.
match highlights: khalifa's goal. fio's ole' in e 3rd/4th placing game. me 'sapu' a vietnamese.. =X

e1rwan: adds another medal to his collection of achievements. =)

cca fiestaa..

2006-04-21T22:36:00.000+08:00

cca fiestaa.. promoting all cca's ngee ann has to offer to e new batch of year one.. help-ed out at e npfc booth.. =X okok.. did nothin' much actually.. just e board.. did abit of touch up.. yeahh of course with e help of fio.. he helped make it nicer.. while me.. errm.. mess it up.. typical of me with art.. waddya expect from me.. da vinci standard.? left with one more board in e club house.. we shall see..

oh yeahh.. so all i did today is.. errm.. 'cuci mata' only i guess =X must sayy... alot of 'anak ayamm'.. npfc newbies~ *hushh* but heyy.. i still performed my friday prayers.. =)

fio is a one of a kind todayy.. crazy drunk bugger.!

anyhoos.. tmr got a mini 7 a side competition at mdis.. so yeah.. wish me luck ayee.. =)

e1rwan: after a week.. lets talkk.. =)

thick books..

2006-04-20T23:58:00.000+08:00

went school early mornin'.. get my lappy all set & ready for new semester.. program installed.. =) didn't took that long.. lucky mee.. also got 3 of my books needed.. all ever so thickk.. burnt my pocket a freakin $30++.. judging by e binded notes.. i think i'm goin' to have a hard time with e new modules.. =( so many maths.. arghh..

saw a lot of new fresh familiar faces.. yestmint.. aziza.. fiddy.. amsyar~ cooll..

helped to clean up npfc club house room.. =) good job i must say.. and i'm currently in charge of e notice boardd.. damnn.. why me.. e guy who have no talents in arts.. damnn.. anyone willing to helpp.? pretty pleasee~ =X cca fiesta tmrr.. ~

e1rwan: yanbk is officially a 'matrep'.. loll.. akan kembali ke rahmatullah..

nanny mcphee.? mary poppins.?

2006-04-19T15:56:00.000+08:00

watched nanny mcphee twice yesterday.. courtesy of fio's dvd.. =X not e greates of show.. but still enjoyable to watch.. =)

i like e catch phrase..
'when you need me but you do not want me, then i must stay.. when you want me but no longer need me, then i must go' - nanny mchpee

anyhoo.. e show reminds me of mary poppins.. both fairy-tale like.. only mary poppins have songs and dances.. loll..

e1rwan: done watchin nanny mcphee..
e1rwan: is soopa bored right noww..

free tix..

2006-04-17T23:41:00.000+08:00

out of nowhere.. 2 girls approached.. and vuala.. fio & i got 2 pairs of free movie passes to e sneak preview of 'the wild' at gv marina.. no strings attached.. brought along iasky and his wifey serii.. e show wasn't that great.. but was quite touchin' a lil.. =)) graphic was awesomee though..

seriously, no arguing with it.. east sides are havens for anak ayam.. tskk..

aww mann.. my boots are too common alreadyy.. too many people usin' it noww.. =( lucky i'm e pioneer of it.. and i'm proud of it.. =)) should i get a new boot.? maybe soon.? for boots to last longer, it needs to be use rotational basis.. training and game wise.. did i mention i'm fallin' in love with e new nike boot tiempo legend touch.. arghh.. hopin' no one i know gets it before i do.. or i'll have to scout for a new one to suit my personality of play different from others.. a boot that upholds a midfielder needs and helps me play better.! =)

e1rwan: not wanting to be outstandin'..
e1rwan: neither wants to be common..
e1rwan: want's to have its own personality to call its own..

good food..

2006-04-16T22:25:00.000+08:00

1st and foremost.. my mom makes good prawn noodle.! =)) marvellous piece of delicacy =PpP

went queensway then headed to marina.. butt match against nfc was postponed due to poor weather.. and so went over to 'ktm' to makann.. and yeahh.. they serve good 'laksa special'.. hot and spicyy.. =))

e1rwan: will e situation change for e better for me.?

woodlands..

2006-04-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

friday prayers at almukminers as usuall.. e place was gettin' bigger but construction has yet to be completed.. it rained freaking heavily..

fio and me got soaked.. took an air - conditioned bus.. not helpin' e wet condition i was in.. freakin' coldd.. reached marsiling.. and slacked at ahfeez aka boi westridge crib before e friendly match.. nice place he got theree.. 'borong' at his place.. hee.. =)) must say he has got a really cool room and stuffs.. shades.. tees.. discs.. loll.. you name itt..

proceeded to woodgroove secondary school.. for e match against.. admiralty csc.. drew 1-1.. a game for team westridge reserves.. high in aggression.. survived e game.. didnt play that well.. =X.. e pitch wasn't great eitherr.. after game went over to my grandma's place.. eat, showered and slacked.. vuala i'm now back homee.. did i mention at last i got e trainin' shirt for team westridge.. =)

tmr goin' cck for a competition 'defend your turf'.. i'm quite shagged playin' soccer all week.. shall see how i perform tmr.. hmm.. not forgettin' sunday's game.. so jam packed with football.. =)) i loikee..

e1rwan: wonderin' when i'll get to talk to you againn..
e1rwan: havin' a jam packed football weekk.. =))

smilin' at e end of e dayy..

2006-04-13T23:30:00.000+08:00

e cage attendance: rock, apiz iblis, iasky, sean, yongxun, higirl, rizal, malix, amsyar, fio, yan cuckoo & me.. simply funn.. =) had a great start.. =PpP

jjc in action: adyam's team won yet again.. congrats to himm.. at last got to see him in action for his schooll.. =) jjc pitch was good too..

i'm smilin' at e end of e dayy.. =) please open upp moree..

e1rwan: smilin' at e end of e dayy.. =))

packed and booked..

2006-04-12T22:51:00.000+08:00

gonna have a busy schedule ahead of me startin' todayy.. kinda like a football tour.. loll =X

went ubin last mon.. rest on tuesday.. went for team westridge trainin' todayy.. goin to 'e cage' again tmr with team bK this time round.. on good friday headin' to woodgrove secondary school for a friendly match playing for team westridge.. then saturday maybe gym trainin' with khalifah westridge which has yet to be cfrmed.. while endin' e week on sunday playing against team nfc for team westridge in e league competition.. *phew..

yeahh.. notice my blog sounded different.? springbreak timee.. =PpP

unfazed by anythin'.. i'll be suave.. continuin' my actions.. not givin' up just yett.. even if it takes all e time for me makin' e first move.. to me it's all worth it.. till e time comes where i'll be told to stop.. and here i am as i continue.. prayin' & hopin' that i'll stand a chance..

e1rwan: soccer freak.!
e1rwan: hopin' & prayin'..

ubinn..

2006-04-10T22:21:00.000+08:00

ubin trip was awesome.. got e chance to keep my mind off some things.. i'll make it brief..

attendance: firaruz, iasky, sardonianz, higirl, yongxun, sean, dhilly & malix..
firaruz -organizer.. iasky -goin' nuts towards e end of e day.. sardonianz- really a turtle, slow yet steady.. higirl -plain funny.? i guess.. yongxun -had his time of his life, ever seen a flying bicycle.? =X .. sea -got cramps but still in e mood to read books.. dhilly -loves posing for e camera.. malix -amazingly tahan all e way from ubin till he get back home to 'fart from his mouth' loll..

overall:- weather was great.. e wild bore was growin' healthily.. a giant monitor lizard surpised iasky.. bumboats trips was fun.. e fees & bicycle rentals was xtremely affordable.. breakfast at changi was marvellouss.. trip from end to end of singapore wasn't draggy.. got extra free meals at kfc.. courtesy to sabariah.. =) she rocks.. but missed adyam's match.. a superb day for mee.. =)

man utd simply rule my world.! =) red devils die hard.. through thick and thins shall i be a true red devils backbone.! =pPp.. gunners shot down by red devils 2 to nothin' .. better luck in cpl..

e1rwan: photos uploaded.. iasky got'em
e1rwan: waitin' for sardonianz photos..
e1rwan: freed my mind a lil'..
e1rwan: a true red devil die hard.!

patience game..

2006-04-08T22:15:00.000+08:00

felt so good when i first got it.. smiling from ear to ear.. been a while since i last saw e look.. yeahh.. if looks could kill.. i'll be dead by noww.. e smile was simply heart-meltin'.. sheeshh.. =X

yeahh.. at least i got to be happy for a short while.. but e endin is depressin'.. if i knew it would end up like this.. never would i give it a try in e first place.. darn it.. feelin' of regrets..

"..maybe next time.." words that kept me waitin'.. although i got e gut feelin' & kinda knew it was never gonna come.. i still waited.. and is still waitin'.. shall i play e patience game.? or just pretend it never happened and move along like i always do..

'i said hi.. she said goodbyee..''
"don't cry cause it's over, smile cause it happened.."

e1rwan: wishin for a heart of hard rock..
e1rwan: wishin for a different outcome..
e1rwan: playin' e patience game..

after all this timee..

2006-04-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

surprised myself.. my very first timee.. kudos to mee.. at last i got e guts.. credits should also be given to fio.. givin' me the push i needed.. heart beatin' so fast.. couldn't actually breathe properly.. sounds so dramatic uh.? loll.. but i waited till e very last minutee.. before i got e contact.. hmm..

so is it a good thing or badd.?

it's good i won't be wonderin' no more 'bout what would have happened if i were to have e numbers.. it's bad as i know thats e furthest i could go.. not reciprocatin'... =(

e1rwan: reached e end of e road.. =(
e1rwan: forget and move onn..

2006-04-06T00:39:00.000+08:00

V..

gr8 day todayy.. =)

started of e day early in e mornin' by choosin' my i/s modules for next comin' semester online at npal.. got what i wanted.. flash applications & science and technology.. too bad there wasn't any more vacancy left for 'green vision'.. then went out to have breakfast cum lunch with fio.. at imm's ljs.. thenn..

zul got 4 free passes to catch 'v for vendetta' e movie.. so john, medox & me were specially invited.. hee.. e show was awesome.. a very deep story.. very 'artsy'.. lotsa flowery literature words.. i really liked it.. thanks zul.. watched it at westmall..

then late afternoon.. went to westridge trainin'.. almost kena bubbled by fio.. cheh.. trained in e rain.. soo damn funn.. e last time i got to play soccer in e rain was wayy back in primary school.. i was soaking wet all overr.. khalifah was a 'mat rep' today.. loll.. shockin.. loll.. khalid get to makan my ankle todayy and fio accidentally hits back back at him.. loll.. gay.? loll nahhh.. hahaha pity fio.. kena bullied really bad todayy after trainingg.. & yeah i just got to know he wears his mom's boot for trainin'.. haha..

can't wait to get e new jersey and trainin' top.. gonna miss this sunday's match again.. due to family function thingyy..

went over to west coast mcdee with fio before headin' home.. kamal's car was jam packed and soo we intended to 'explore' since we wont get a lift back homee.. at mcdee's *beep* .. can't tell much.. -private and confidential-.. all i know.. i became a 'pen-borrower' loll.. and we still head over to ginza plaza for don't know whatever reason.. e place sucks.! with e capital S.! really.. and so we decided to go home just when e fries got cold and hard.. yuckk.. =X

just finished watchin american idol.. i'm having mcpheever againn right noww.. =PpP now will wait till 2:40a.m for e cpl's games..

e1rwan: proud of fio.. also pity himm..
e1rwan: played in e heavy rain.. funn..
e1rwan: fiwan.? loll wad de..
e1rwan: thought 'V for vendetta' rock..
e1rwan: thinks i/s modules sucks..
e1rwan: had a gr8 fulfilling day.. no boredom.!

downn..

2006-04-04T19:01:00.000+08:00

cheese buns are nicee.. mom bought it.. =) chicken chop at former 'anggerik' coffee shop nearby almukminin, surprisingly gOod.. go check it outt.. guys out there, do visit e drink stall & buy somethin' anythin'.. a rare treat for you... trust mee.. toopid dexta.. buey steady.. argh... could have gotten it.. damnn.. loll..

been rainin' alot every late afternoons.. damnn.. can't really play soccer with bK.. so freakin' boredd.. lucky for me.. e funny chinese show 'holland v' is repeatin e whole season once more every weekday on channel 8 at 530pm. =) hee.. fun stuff watchin' that idiotic retarded jingjing.. loll..

i realised.. i can't do anythin.. there's nothin' i could do.. =(

e1rwan: thumbs up for former 'anggerik' coffee shop..
e1rwan: dexta sucks.! loll..
e1rwan: holland v returns..

so nearr yet so farr..

2006-04-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

a lil' visit to town with iassky, ianbk & fio.. saw an old primary schoolmate of minee.. nurizal.. all 'punk-ed' up.. didn't recognise me but remembered fio.. me hafiz.? nahhh.. and at heeren, avoided khalifah westridge.. cause still unsure whether goin to turn up at tmr's game at marina.. gonna wait for e green light from fio..

'sad-ed' by e incident at j.e interchange upon goin' home.. not really an incident.. and i also don't think there's such word as 'sad-ed'.. =X
anyhoo.. i guess our paths didn't cross one another.. even if i did get to see.. i couldn't see myself making e first move to get somethin of it.. as if i dare..
not rememberin' when e last time i saw.. way too long to recall.. and of all nights.. it had to be tonight.. and to make it worse.. i missed it.. i didn't get to see.. even for a while.. at least i could have smiled a lil'.. but NOOoo.. i hadta rush for e bus 52.. damnn..
yeahh.. no point braggin bout it.. since i missed it and even if i didn't.. nothin' would have happened.. soo like to thank fio for tellin' me 'bout it.. guessed it wasn't meant to be.. still will be a longing a heart..

e1rwan: so near yet so farr.. missed it..
e1rwan: 'sad-ed'

short trip.. 'imm

2006-03-30T23:01:00.000+08:00

notice anythin.? loll.. (daiso)

i swear it wasn'tme arrangin' them that wayy.. loll

a short visit to imm.. with arainwawan a.k.a mr toilet & firaruz.. simply just walkin around.. yeahh.. and so i missed trl (amanda bynes co-hostin') and the blind girl chinese show.. and here i'm bloggin.. as usuall mr toilet got bullied and yeahh.. e night filled with laughter.. and everyone went home happily ever afterr.. too bad couldn't get e pict of e dead unique coloured fly at daiso..

at least somethinn'..

2006-03-25T23:43:00.000+08:00

yeayya.! examination results. i did okk.. =) didn't flunk anyy.. amazinglyy~ loll.. contented. =) won't list out e details of my gpa & grades.. too lazy to type outt..

apm '06 was okk i guess.. some good performances.. but poor hosts.! sucks.! rossa was cutee.. loll.. performed her song 'pudar'.. taufik was awesome.. simply great.! and that is why he is singapore idol.. =PpP and i think he is better than any of e anugerah finalists.. and does anyone has e rendition of taufik & mawi - "gadis melayu".? its freakin nicee.. send me e song plss.. anyonee.?

yeahh.. and so u notice e change of layoutt.. =) a breathe of freshness with this one.. enjoyy..

e1rwan: wants a fresh new-lookin layout..
e1rwan: exam results was okk..
e1rwan: thinks taufik's da mann.!

side-trackin' paths..

2006-03-22T01:38:00.000+08:00

gotta be smooth and suave to get it..

a long process it might be.. but worthwhile.. just have to go through e long processed journey.. and things might reciprocate back..

walked through e path of friendship not realising what's at e end of e road.. enjoyin e company of it.. but after a while it took its toll on me.. kinda tired of it.. that's where it really struck me.. its not her.. not e same.. isn't e one truly wanted.. e opposite party could easily reciprocate in this situation.. howw odd.. but gotta play dumbb.. and make things straight againn.. just isn't rightt..

when it comes to e one tryin to give a go at .. simply can't.. no idea.. just can't. things just aren't as smooth.. path taken seems rocky and slithery with lotsa hurdles facin'.. startled alott.. thus never really portraits one trueself.. more self-concious and protective of one's impression.. taken back communicatin'.. sometimes.. not takin' a step forward bein too afraid.. more to shy-ness actually.. in e end losin' out big timee.. tskk.. see how different reactions could be..

in need is a change e mindset.. side-trackin' paths.. treat as though it meant nothin to one.. get warm and cosy 1st.. once comfy enough.. strike while its hott.. i believe thats how things might reciprocate back for one.. be suave and cool through all those processes.. start out smooth and consistent right from the start.. not full proof.. not dwellin on this matter no more.. work on it e next time opportunity knocks on e door..

e1rwan: side-trackin' to simple path to give a go at it..
e1rwan: the word is suave and smooth..

i don't knoww..

2006-03-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

just re-called back incident of e past.. and a stranger who eventually became a friend.. said "be nice.." ouchh.. can be a really nasty.. like a slap to e face.. tskk..

learnt that.. it's best to listen than to talk when a group of people is talkin'.. better not make a fool out of yourself.. hmm..

can e break get any more boring than thiss.? rottin' at home day after dayy.. tskk.. layin' low un-noticed.. un-called for.. left outt.. tskk..

e1rwan: tryin' be nicee..
e1rwan: believes boredom can kill..

boredom kills.. loll..

2006-03-20T00:07:00.000+08:00

comin' this friday will be e released of my exam results.. hmm.. wish me luck ayee.. =X

anyhoos..
in my opinion football is catogarized under contact sports.. so to all e sissy out there.. if cannot kena abit go wear a skirt and dance ballet... common.. it's only natural you'll get hard and harsh tackles.. or whacked real hard by a ball or somethin'.. it's soccer helloooo...

injury.? hmm.. yeahh.. also natural to get injuries.. trust me.. i've been playin since primary (rps).. to secondary (hyfc).. now tertiary standards (team np) and even social football standard exposure.. 'team bK'.. 'team hamster' loll and 'team westridge'.. i got knocked out.. slide down.. all kinda things u can imagine.. strain calf, hamstring, chest.. swollen baluku.. bloody bleed.. sprained till blue black jialat.. wrist and ankle, scratched like just came out from cat fight.. yeah.. been through all that.. but still that didn't stop me from playin' soccer.. haha.. yeahh.. malix been with me since k1.. he should know what i mean..

so to all those sissy out there.. if u got a lil minor injury setback.. please dont brag about it to me.. or i'm 'rembat' ur head so hard till u forget your father's name.. lol.. so yeahh..

did i mention i got my 1st yellow card for team westridge already.. lol.. =X haha.. i got opponents' studs reachin' up to my ears and then kena 'siku' some more .. crap right.. tskk.. yeahh.. keepin' cool and be nice.. hee..

e1rwan: dont entertain sissy braggers with minor injuries..
e1rwan: continuin' for team westridge.?
e1rwan: be nice'..

torres..

2006-03-16T23:04:00.000+08:00

fernando torres off to newcastle.? what crap is that.. manchester united should get him.. totally.. we'll see where he end up att..

1st time to cck sports complex.. similar to jurong east.. but 1st impression of it is good.. hee.. *cheeky* =PpP

agreein' with nazzy that poetry is e best way to depict e whole emotion, story, feelings, with just a few sentences instead of a lengthy composition.. its e best way to pour out what's bottled inside.. certainly not meant to be straight forward.. figure it out.. artsy form. =)

e1rwan: deep thoughts..

dowwnnn..

2006-03-15T16:02:00.000+08:00

things didn't turn out e way i thought it would be.. tskk.. kinda feel sucky bout themm.. but there's always alternatives for it.. sorry. relations and technology.

a let-down.. to know someone you thought were close to you actually are distance away from you.. tsk.. friendship.

dejavu. still hopin' one day it'll happen again.. the one day where two paths crosses one another again.. where i'll try to change e route of it.. still waitin.. still lookin' outt.. takin' e same route through and fro.. maybe that very person would appear one day if i keep doin'.. sole purpose a good game of fussball.. apart from it is to side-track for a chance to maybe get somethin out of a very rare opportunity..

i know no nuts bout e personn.. just e name to depict a pict in my head.. still so clueless.. tskk.

e1rwan: artsy formm..
e1rwan: out of westridge..

lets go wireless..

2006-03-13T23:50:00.000+08:00

at long lastt.. lets go wireless =) 'unknown'.. dont get untangled and restricted with all those wires.. =PpP

anyone up for 'nanny mcphee' and 'dorm'.?

alfro talks made me realisee..
i wanna improve too.! wanna play as well as alfro.. no attributes to offer to e team.. even given e heights i seldom use it to my advantage to head.. tskk.. i'm nothin to e team man.. argh.. suck.! hopefully one day i'll be really good at somethin and b of a help to e team than a hindrance.. playmaker.? wow.. a farfetched thot.. but i'll work towards it.. sighh..

and yeah.. i think jason mraz is freakin talented.. been a fan of him since his single 'you and i'.. kinda now gotten myself addicted to 'geek in e pink'..

e1rwan: anyone up for some movies.?
e1rwan: anyone wanna kick some balls.?

ipod update..

2006-03-11T00:38:00.000+08:00

yeyya! finally got all e songs i've wanted for ever so long and updated me ipod.! =) thanks to all e aunties and uncles out there that had sent me e songs..

still down with flu and sore chest.. argh.. dont know why so jialatt.. tskk.. anyhoos gonna go help out at arainwawan's aunty's wedding.. so yeahh.. hope somethin' good happens theree.. i wanna play on sunday's game for westridge.. but got e feelin gotta let it go due to my injury.. arghh.. thenn on monday.. got 'ecp' outing thingy with hymly peeps.. might not go to that also due to some reasons.. and tuesday hynp gatherin at 'PS' .. not sure goin also.. loll.. we shall see.. damnn..

american idol 5.! what e hell man.. freak show.. 'Will' got eliminated.. sucks.. well at least i got katherine mcphee and e ever so cute kellie pickle to root for now =)

e1rwan: wants to play more soccer.!
e1rwan: feels sorry for firry..
e1rwan: updated his ipod..

soccer exposuree.

2006-03-09T00:17:00.000+08:00

my malay language may not be good.. but i do know that "sangkar" is a cage & "sarang" is nest.! loll.. malix and iassky almost got me theree loll.. but thanks to "a1" o level malay student fio, i got it right.. loll.

insidee..

went to "the cage" today.. awesome experience... really.. similar turf style to st wilfred pitch only smaller and thicker.. e feelin' is just so right.. thanks to k3v1n, tok kok, malix, fio, iassky.. very costly but worth every penny of it.. really.. quite a distance to travel too.. kallang.. but ever worthwhile.. totallyy..

e cage..

fun stuff.. getta "lunge" at k3v1n.! *evil* lol.. and yeahh he got me back with his crunching back tackle.. siao siao.! loll. it was all good.. no hard feelin.. just for e fun of it.. loll..

took bus 197 (butt numbin') & 11 to kallang (e cage).. then took 985(expressin') to west mall.. explorin' once moree.. then 157 to bk's homeground..

more football.. more fussball.. more soccer..

*too bad iassky camera battery died on him.. if not loads of picts could be taken.. =PpP
still havin runnin' nose.. blocked nose too. err.. so sick.. i'm feelin high on heavy dosage of panadol cold.. =X

simple words can hurt so much.. sighh.. "stranger".. what a word.. tskk..

e1rwan: the cage was awesome..
e1rwan: loves explorin'
e1rwan: simple words can be hurtin'.
e1rwan: on e high with flu..

simplicity..

2006-03-06T23:48:00.000+08:00

i believe.. through simple play comes a beautiful game of football.. i'm more to english style.. simple pass and build up play.. i'm so not american latin samba style where you dribble with fantastic flairs and tricks from one side to e other and scoree.. that's so not my stylee.. i'm not a big scorer.. but more on containin' and holdin' up play..so that's me

hushh and playy.. gotta change.. not only for me but others too.. stop thrash talin' and start playin' real football.. e beautiful game itself.. let e feet do e talkin'.. thats the beauty of football..

happy 39th bDay to cik mala.. =) went to her house and celebrated with almost e whole family.. as usuall chaotic.. loll.. in a good wayy.. feel like eatin' pizza and the chicken wings againn.. by e way.. anyone is up to eat breakfast wit me at mcdonalds.? just felt like eatin hot pancakes.. =X anyone.?

and i'm so in love with my mom's hp.. so freakin simple.. nice to type text msges on.. not bulky.. but lackin in mp3/aac & camera megapixel functions.. =X lol.. old hp u see.. but still catches me heart.. loll =PpP

arainwawann.. still a big gay at heart.. lol.. muacks.. love you too.. yuckk.. hurry up come online.! plsss.. i'm desperate for it..

e1rwan: still waitin' for arainwawann..
e1rwan: addicted to mom's hp..
e1rwan: english is my style of playin'
e1rwan: wants hot pancakes from mcdonalds..

sometimee..

2006-03-06T00:08:00.000+08:00

sometimee.. i just wished i was livin' in e eastern side of singaporee.. environment and surrounding there is so much different.. but at times.. i'm just really glad that i'm a westsider. =)

i think i mis-placed my bank book.. i'm so screwed.. sighh.. westridge drew with abfc.. dumbass mee played badly once again.. tskk.. tanglin pitch is so uluu and freakyy in a wayy.. at least marina ain't that badd..

all e best for fio maths paper tmr..

e1rwan: realised he had only 3 real thang..
e1rwan: not even 1 he got.. sighh..

couch potato..

2006-03-01T13:23:00.000+08:00

it's official.. i'm a couch potato.. 1st day of break did nothin' but watch tvv and stare at my monitor screen..

and i just realised that the new season 'charmed' consist of a new cast which was one of the cast from '8 simple rules for datin' my teenage daughters'.. yeahh it's kaley cuoco a.k.a bridget but called billy for charmed series.. she's hott.. seriously.. and she's the reason why i'm beginnin' to start once again watchin charmed.. =X and did i mention the comedy show of "8 simple r..." rock.? you peeps should catch it.. 3 whole seasons of laughter non-stop..

courtesy to alfro.. spiderman-3 is comin' to theatre soon.! hee.. villain - venom, sandman & new goblin.! so not gonna miss it.! kirsten dunst here i comee.. =PpP

spidey..

a must watch.. england vs uruguay 3:30 a.m. chn 24. live.~ just a friendly though.. than later tonight at 8.. american idol girl's performances.! katharine mcphee.. i've got your back.! please don't get eliminated.~ =X

anyhoos.. does anyone have.. 'simon webbe - after all this time.'. just saw it the other day on mtv.. damn its uber-ly nicee.. oh yeah and i still want the remix version of 'ashlee simpson - l.o.v.e feat' missy elliot'.. so longg.! still haven't gotten' them yett.. arghh.. any kind souls out theree.. my last resort.. would be chris.. hee.. =)

e1rwan: a couch potato
e1rwan: goin' back to fifa 2005..
e1rwan: lookin' forward to westridge trainin'

breakk-timee..

2006-02-27T23:46:00.000+08:00

ael - analogue electronic..
waddya guess.? yeahh of course.. i'm totally gonna flunk both my papers. screwed. bright - side = it's overr.. have got to enjoy e break b4 the released of the exam results & school re-openin.. anywayy wanna thank sha for all the help given man.. sorry if i wasted the time and effort.. just hopin' i would pass & move on without repeatin' any modules..

break time.! football fever i'm feelin' noww.. anywayy.. damnn my right heels hurts.. could barely walk properly.. limpin'.. old injury don't haunt me againn.. plss..

manchester united a.k.a red devils has thrashed wigan athlethic 4-0 to win th trophy of league cup.. "-for you smudge.. fantastic play.~ =)

today, i realised something when my friend mentioned somethin' to me.. my hp is redundant.. i am so not usin' it.. guess how many calls i practically get in a day.. barely none.. sms too.! the word is none.! only when time that i have got to go out with friends and stuff like that.. will i get text msgs and calls.. and the duration of the call is less than a minute most of it.! let me recall.. hmm most call to be similar like.. "oi.! where are you.? hurry up leh.. ok see you liaoo" .. hung up.. for text msgs "meet at the bus stop at 9".. and sometimes "ok".. how pathetic right.? hmm.. i'm not braggin 'bout the really low bills i get each month.. i'm just amazed at how pathetic my hp has been.. it has been a no used to me.. wonderin' why i paid for my line subscription.? i dont use more than 700 sms-es.. and yeahh i got incoming calls free.. which i seldom receive any calls.!.. so you see.. why am i payin' for something i don't use..

solution to this.? errmm.. try to ask for any girl's number you see anywhere that you are attracted to and do your thang.. get to know and stuff be chat partners dadidadida.. as you know.. not bein' a male chauvanist pig here.. but a female can really talk alot you know.. so i believe your hp will be so alive.. but if you can't get any.. hmm.. since you can't get her number.. then try gettin' her mum's or grandma's number.. loll.. sounds mentally unsound.. too desperate.. wacko.. i'm just crappin' .. the real solution is.. terminate you line plan.. and stop usin' hp.. house phone will do.. but don't get me wrong 'bout this entry.. i'm still usin' me hp.

e1rwan: screwed another major paper..
e1rwan: still usin his hp..
e1rwan: for you smudge..

screw-ed eg2..

2006-02-24T12:27:00.000+08:00

arghh.. screwed eg2 paper.. screw maths.! totally dislike subjects and modules with numbers.. ael - analogue electronics comes monday.. totally wanna get it done and over with.. simple hate ael'..

cpl - champions' league matches.. awesome.. lights of barca, arsenal, bayern, ac milan & inter milan.. =))

american idol 5.. i'm so rootin' for katharine mcphee.. hee.

e1rwan: dislike examinations.
e1rwan: rootin' for katharine mcphee
e1rwan: hates eg2 & ael
e1rwan: gettin' ready for friday prayers

clarify-ing..

2006-02-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

loll.. knew it's gonna blew up into somethin' big.. yeapp saw it comin'..

wahey.. let's clarify.. if i would have a problem or anythin to say.. trust me .. i'll talk mano o mano straight to the face.. but simply i aint got nothin'.. i clearly didn't ask for anythin.. even an apology.. if i would want one.. i would have certainly talkk bout itt..

2nd-ly, i define an idol someone a person would look up to as he/she might be inspired by it.. surely i think a person might get offended if others were to say somethin just ever so un-constructive remarks 'bout e idol of a person.. especially when the idol is like kinda in a depressin' stage.. well i believe typical social etiquette in everyone should at least sympathize & not just come up with cynical remarks..

3rd-ly, i would define a blog to myself as a simple e-notebook a.k.a online diary.. where lotsa people would jot down what they feel about anything that they wanna write about.. some just put their chronological events and stuff.. i believe this doesn't have to be publicly direct nor precise.. one can write in art form with lotsa flowery language or even "cheem" vocabs where people might not neccessarily understand.~ some entries could also be meant for the blogger itself only to remind he/she was onced kinda got unhappy/happy with something and this does not mean that whoever reads the entry should understand and knows what it's all about.. an so i think i need not specifically point out clearly what e crap i'm talkin' about nor who i'm talkin bout'.. so yeahh.. it's personal..

4thly, talkin bout respect.. i think this has gotta apply.. one should respect e other in other to receive the same amount of respect oneself would want to be respected.. a really good principle..

5thly, i think everyone in this world has been called the most despicable word a man could ever thought of.. trust me.. even that sucker president bush to the ever so innocent oprah winfrey.. and of course i know people would get offended.. duhh.. who wouldn't.. and yeahh.. i would certainly "debate" back.. =)) typical me.. duhh.. natural reactionss dudeess..

6th-ly, come on~!.. as one would put it.. i would be crazy to break off friendship that i've hold for lets see since k1 (1993) - poly (2006) which i calculate to be around 13 years and still countin..' unless e other party decided to call off all ties with me.. it's just another dispute.. trust me.. it's only natural of friends to have e slightest of disputes over small things.. which i say is a healthy friendship.. imagine if u never had quarrel or a small fight with your long lasting bud before.. eek.. it really doesnt sound right.. more like gayy to mee.. to any 3rd and 4th party.. please don't be a batu-api.. it's all been done and settled.. "i know we're cool"- gwen stefani~

7th-ly, everyone has the right to be angry.. duhh.. has their own way ventin' and showin' it.. certainly also.. their own ways to cool it..

e1rwan: still haven't change a bit..
e1rwan: the hot-headed boy he always had been..
e1rwan: clarified things outt..

bloody sucker.!

2006-02-20T00:56:00.000+08:00

he sucks.! sometimes i feel like i could break his leg instantly.. like right 'bout noww.!

ever heard "weird" being described as one of a major injury that could cost a person's career.? that's ok.. but he the bloody blood sucker with no brain in his soopa small head simply had to make stOOpid remarks. he didn't even watch the game i supposed.! dumb-ass.! he didnt even value and respect what the player had done.. damn sucker mann.! arGh.. so much for being a soccer fan.. worst.. soccer player himself.! if only i had prayed he would have a game of soccer where he tries to block off someone's shot and land awkwardly on the ground and break his hands and legs.! and see how he feels if i say.. "what a weird injury".. "self- injured"... wouldn't it be great if that happens.. a keeper some more.! e next time u dive.. be careful sucker.!

here's somethin from soccernet.com..
-"vast majority of liverpool's 44,000 crowd stood to applaud the former leeds man.
-"liverpool boss rafael benitez publicly offered his sympathies over the smith incident..
-"alan has immensed courage and he was showing it when he went to block the free kick..
-"..made what was already a bad day 10 times worst.
-"..boss sir alex ferguson demanding his team to win carling cup trophy for 'alan'
-"..could be sidelined for a year.

at least rafael could sympathize and there goes this toopid dumb-ass who said all the toopid remarks to me.. no brain.! of all people.. me.? cannot talk to his other dumb frens who could take in all his crap huhh.? argh..

e1rwan: thinks he's a big ASS-HOLE.!
e1rwan: doesn't wanna say all these to his face..
e1rwan: ventin' out his anger by bloggin..